Until eternity

The Talk

I get a little nervous hearing those words, but I don't want her to know that so, I gladly smile and tell her to join me on the couch.

We are both sitting there in silence, when I can't bare it I decide to ask her what she wanted to talk about.

Ruth looks a little uncomfortable, so I extend a smile and ask if she is okay. She seems to calm down a bit but still says nothing.

I'm getting a little antsy myself, so I ask how she enjoyed the evening. I jokingly tell her I hope we aren't scaring her off.

She laughs a bit and tells me she rather enjoyed the fun. I ask her again, So Ruth you wanted to talk, what can I do for you. I tell her in most bubbly voice.

Ruth takes a deep breath, and turns and looks me in the eyes. She tells me...

(Ruth POV)

Shailene...Shai, when Theo told me he got the lead in these movies I was so happy for him. Well, when he started giving me the details on how many movies and years it would be, well I got a little nervous.

When I found out it was you who was gonna be playing opposite him, well I must confess.. I googled you on the internet.

Shai POV

I'm sitting here listening to Ruth uncomfortably confess she looked me up on the internet. All the while feeling guilty because I have done the same.

I look at Ruth who is just staring at her tea, and the only thing that comes  out of my mouth is "What do you think!"

Ruth just looks at me with confussion, and I ask her did you find anything interesting.

 Ruth you have to know I'm not big on social media. I never never google myself so you have to tell me if you found anything interesting.

I feel sort of bad because I'm trying to lighten the mood and she seems a bit  worried, like she wants to ask me something or tell me something.

She takes a deep breathe and tells me she found nothing bad, in fact she finds me quit fascinating. I just smile and jokingly say, I'm glad it didn't have anything weird like I'm an alien!

Ruth starts to apologize to me and I stop her and tell her there is no need to apologize. I reassure her, any girl would probably do the same out of curiousity.

I mean Theo and her have been together for awhile, so I don't understand what her actual purpose behind googling me was. 

I mean was she a jealous person? Did Theo ever give her a reason to be looking up a co-star? Or is she just feeling a little insecure being we are going to be spending a lot of time together.

I mean you know how these movies go. Once the fans start going, man they can come up with some pretty interesting fantasies.

Like Jennifer Lawrence and her co-star Josh. Look at Kristen and Robert. I mean the fans start talking about how everyone makes a good couple. Coming up with cute names for them. 

Am I really ready to deal with that, forget about me I mean I am single at the moment but it probably will be hard for Ruth.

Ruth starts to shake me, because once again I must of got lost in my thoughts. I laugh a little and tell her sorry that my mind tends to wonder.

I decide to give her hug and thank her for being honest with me. I tell Ruth I hope we can be great friends and that I look forward to getting to know each other.

She equally expresses the same. We finish our tea and just have gabbed about random things. We decide to go out for breakfast to get to know each other the next morning.

We say our goodnights, and head to bed, her to Theo's room and me to mine.  As I walk to my room I feel a sense of relief. 

My only concern right now, is that I don't dream tonight. I mean I do not want her hearing me, screaming about Theo. That would be totally bad.

As I close my eyes the last thing running through my mind is Theo. Theo why did you have to come into my life and flip it upside down.

That is at the wrong time. "You ever feel like you met the right person at the wrong time." I remember this quote, and as sleep takes over me, it is repeating in my head.