The Heart Chronicles

➳ Wonder

When the light fades and the fire dies out

When I am on my knees with the desire to shout

I naively think that you will be there to pick me up

and help me from the mountain of emotions that's bound to erupt

It saddens me though, to find you by my side

Only standing idly while trying to hide

Throwing condescending remarks that throw me into the crevasses

of darkness...

Wasn't it you who would make everything better?

Wasn't it you who made me find the sweet in the bitter?

Now the only sweetness I find is in the cravings of death

and the little moments when I am out of breath

Though I wonder if it makes you happy to break

my heart, the promises, and everything that causes my heart to ache

I wonder if the cancerous thing called time

made you realize what a pathetic life that was mine

I wonder I wonder I wonder

What you would do if you found me in an eternal slumber

I really do wonder

l.a.