I would start with an apology
But I know a million sorrys won't
Right my wrong
So I am writing you this poem
To ask you for forgiveness
and explain why I couldn't do it.
It was as if my tongue was held back by the thoughts of the future possibilities
Your gaze urged me to say those two words but at the same time kept me from saying them
I couldn't say it
I could not say-
I promise.
I promise not to die intentionally.
I was afraid. And I still am.
But you must understand I don't know what life will bring
I don't know if I will ever find myself in that bottomless pit again
I cannot promise you my hands won't clumsily slip
and too much blood won't spill
and the world won't turn black
I cannot promise you I will live the way you want me to
Because truthfully I never imagined I'd live to this day.
So please understand, my dear:
Though this promise cannot be kept by me
I will try to live for now.
For you
l.a.
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Poetry❝I'm starting to get bad again.❞ - Charlie A collection of thoughts made into poems by yours truly. {Highest Rank: #165 in Poetry}