Edward the Wolf (twilight fanfiction)

Chapter 16

Nightmare

It was Friday again. It was since a week that I laid my eyes on Bella. I didn't go to school this week, I needed to be in a better shape before I saw her again, needed to make myself strong enough not to talk to her. I prepared myself for the emotions that will hit me when I would see her. I was terrified that when we meet again she would look at me with disgust and hate. That thought was a little bit part of why I stayed at home.

About the attack, Bella surprisingly went with my story. That Jacob attacked her without purpose, Jasper and me saw it from across the lot and we went to help her. Jasper and Jacob got into a fight, but Jacob ran away while I treated Bella's injury. After Jacob escaped, Jasper called Alice to help me bring Bella to the hospital. And she told everybody this story even when I shouted at her and called her stupid. Most people would have told everyone what they really thought they saw or heard, but she didn't.

The week went without seeing her and it felt like each day killed me a little bit more. It was almost unbearable not seeing with my own eyes that she was safe. That's why the others kept check on her all day. I was really grateful for that. I was slowly realising that if this week almost killed me without her, what would it do to me if I stayed away from her for a life.

While the others were at school, I was running at the border checking that the bloodsuckers didn't come back and it also kept part of my mind busy, but Bella was always in my mind no matter what I did. Plus the others wouldn't let me do the night patrols. They were still worried about me not having enough sleep. No matter how many times I told them that I was okay. But of course, that was a big lie.

The first two nights I slept with pills, I didn't have any dreams. At Monday night I tried without them. I had a nightmare about Bella. She was on the same meadow, but this time I wasn't the one attacking her. It was a blurry form. And I still couldn't control my body so I had to watch it helplessly as she was killed. I woke up panting and shaking with sobs, but I didn't let them escape.

The next night it was the same, but I recognised that a vampire attacked her. The third night I could control my body, but I wasn't at the meadow I was in the woods, in my wolf form. I felt a pull, I only felt that toward Bella so I let it guide me. I ran through the forest, realising I was heading toward the meadow. When I arrived I only found Bella's lifeless body covered in blood. Her eyes were open allowing me to see her brown eyes full of disappointment.

Fourth night I arrived when the vampire killed her. I didn't tell anyone about the dreams. Usually when I woke up I went outside the balcony and let the cool air calm me. These dreams were a big part of why I was afraid I would hurt or disappoint her.

I wondered that this night I would finally save her.

"Edward could you pass me the cheese, please?" Esme's voice snapped me out of my thoughts. We were in the kitchen and Esme was making pizza for dinner.

I nodded and gave it to her. When she took it she looked concerned. "What?" I asked.

She sighed and shook her head. "I know about the nightmares." She didn't look at me as she spoke.

I let out a ragged breath and shrugged. "That's nothing new."

"Maybe, but you are sleeping less. And it's hurting us to see you like this. You are always exhausted, you are not talking to us anymore or smiling, you don't even come out of your room." She said and when she looked at me I saw the wory and sadness in her eyes.

"I am sorry, but I need some time to figure things out, alone." I wispered the last word.

"But you are not alone anymore Edward! Maybe we can't help you but we are still here if you need us! There has to be something that we can do."

"What Esme? What do you think can help me?"
I asked and deep inside of me I was hoping that she knew the answer or solution, anything.

"Bella." She wispered. "She is your cure Edward. She is the only one who can save you, she is the only one who you will let to. You have to get her." And that was the most truthful statement that I ever heard in my long life.

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