Edward the Wolf (twilight fanfiction)

Chapter 11

Stubborn

We sat in a heavy silence. I cast my eyes on the table looking my hands while the others were deep in thoughts. I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair. I was frustrated.

After 5 minutes of uncomfortable silence, Esme stood up and threw her arms around my neck. I almost fell back with my chair from the inpact. But I fortunately held up myself. "Oh, Edward I am so happy for you!" She squealed right into my ear. "When are you planning to tell her?"

I slowly got her arms off around my neck. I looked over my family's faces. Everyone's were full of happiness for me. They knew the feeling when you find your imprint. "I am not telling her." I stated simply.

I watched how their expressions changed. I saw understanding, confusion, sadness and that typical look that told me that I am an idiot.

"Son.." Tried Carlisle, but I cut him off.

"Don't start it. This is the reason why I didn't want to tell you." I said running my fingers through my hair again.

"Edward! This is about what happened right?" Jasper asked. "That wasn't your fault. Everyone makes mistakes. All of us. And don't you dare to believe what he said."

I snorted. All of them knew that my situation was different. I didn't just ran away from home because I had nothing like Rose and him. "He is right Edward. You have beaten yourself up far too much about what happened. You deserve to be happy again." Esme tried to convince me.

For a brief moment I imagined my life with Bella. How could it be. We grow old together, have children. Maybe a boy and a girl. I almost smiled about the possible future, but then another image came to my mind. Bella smiling up at me and her beautiful face ruined by my claw marks. It could happen easily, I just get angry about something and she is too close when I phase.. Pain washed over me and I felt my chest tighten. I saw that memory again. Instead, this time Bella was the one who I hurt.

I took a shaky breath and shook my head. "No, no. I am too dangerous. I have even proved that. No matter how much I love someone I just hurt them." I said and I clenched my fists.

"Edward, please just think about it. It doesn't need to be that way. We will be there to help you, but I doubt you would need it." Carlisle tried to reason with me.

I stood up, my chair fell back in the process. I tugged on my hair. "No you don't get it! If I hurt her.." I trailed off. Just the thought caused me pain. "I won't survive it. Not this time." Because this time Bella would be the one who got hurt. I added in my head. "I won't let the past repeat itself." I whispered as I walked to the front door. I opened it and I was immediately out running in my wolf form.

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