Chapter 32

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Running away

WARNING:
this chapter contains child abuse, nothing really detailed, I think, but better be safe.

After 5 minutes -I was sure that my father had counted it- we left the hospital and went home. We started to clean up the kitchen. I was washing up the blood from the floor and was trying not to throw up right there. Fortunately or unfortunately the nausea disappeared as soon as I felt my father behind me. I turned around and with that he slapped me.

"It is all your fault!" He screamed at me. "The only reason I hadn't killed you yet because somehow you are important to Elisabeth! But remember this: you are not my son anymore!" He hit me this time and I fell to the floor. "Doesn't she mean anything to you?!" He kicked my stomach. "You are a selfish idiot! Nobody will love you ever!" He screamed at me. "You are a monster." He spat at me and hit and kicked me several times.

I didn't fight against him, in fact I welcomed his punches and kicks at first. Because I deserved them and he was right. Who could do something like that. I hurt my own mother. I was a selfish monster.

"I would make sure that everyone knows that." He whispered manically and found a knife. When I saw that I started to back away from him, but by then I was too beaten up to defend myself. He grabbed my right arm and sliced deep in it. I screamed in agony and tried to pull my hand away but his grip was firm. He repeated this another 6 times, before he let me go. I backed away from him to the corner. My wolf gene already started to heal them in, but it didn't loosened the pain. "I counted it. There are 7 deep slashes on her, because of you. And now everybody would see what a monster are you. Hurting your own mother!" He shouted.

I hastily got up and ran upstairs to my room, a few times I stumbled but fortunately I managed to not collapse. Befor closing the door I heard him shout one more time. "You can't run away from what you had done, Edward! I made sure that you would never forget what you are! A selfish monster who doesn't deserve love!" Then he laughed.

I shut my door and let my knees buckle. I sat against the wall while silent tears were running down my face. I didn't know what to do, I just knew that he was right. Every word he had said was true, I realised. I looked down at my hand it was already healed, but there were seven freshly healed scars. The chances of them ever fading away looked pretty low.

I couldn't stay here. I decided. I would leave and never come back. I felt sorry for my mother for leaving her with my father, but I was sure he would never hurt her.

I started to write a letter to her. I told her how sorry I was and that I love her and I always will. I told her to forget me and pretend I never existed. It would be better for everyone.

I folded the letter and put it into my pocket then started to pack a few things. When I was ready I listened if my father was awake. The only noise what I heard was snoring, so I quietly went downstairs and exited the house.

I went to the hospital and searched for Fiona. She was an old friend and a nurse in the hospital. When I finally found her I gave her the letter and told her to give it to my mother when she wakes up and asked her not to tell anybody about it.

After that I headed to the train station in the city and bought a ticket from my money. I could have just run away as a wolf but then they would have tracked me down by scent. The train arrived after 15 minutes and I got on it.

When I sat down, I sighed in relief that I succeeded and escaped. He would never find me again. As I looked out the window, I looked up the stars. I tried to forget about everything that had happened and thought about what should I do know instead. I had nowhere to go and even if a did they would probably wouldn't want me to be there. They would see the scars and knew immediately that something was not right with me. That I was broken. That I was a burden. That I was a selfish monster who didn't deserve love.

Who would want something like that close to themselves?

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So sorry for the lack of updates! I just don't feel like writing lately. But I will try to update. Anyone who is still with me and reading this well thank you, you are awsome!:)
Sorry for any grammar mistakes by the way.

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