Edward the Wolf (twilight fanfiction)

Chapter 22

Here goes nothing

I was sitting in my chair thinking over and over what would I say to Bella. First I had to find out if she was mad at me. Wich she probably was.

It was almost end of the break when she finally entered the class. My body went rigid as I watched as she sat down next to me. I was about to open my mouth to say hello, but the teacher chose that moment to start the class. We needed to work in pairs and that was really good, this way I could talk to Bella.

But when everybody started the task, we just stared at the microscope awkwardly.

I clenched my fists and tried to calm the nervous twisting feeling in my stomach. I knew that I had to fix things between us. So I needed to act naturally and not like a weird hybrid who was madly in love with her. God, most of the humans had no idea how much energy some people needed to pretend that they are normal!

I let out a deep breath and let my fists relax. I looked over at her and pushed the microscope towards her.

"Ladies first." She stared at me blankly. I gulped and pulled back the microscope. "Or perhaps not." I mubmled and cursed at myself in my head.

Bella shook her head, like she was clearing away her thoughts, and looked at me. "Oh, so you think that I can actually help while being as stupid as I am?" She said through clenched teeth. I mentally flinched. Yes, yes, she was still mad at me.

Several sarcastic answers popped into my head but I pushed them away. There was no chance in hell that I was gonna make the whole thing worse. "I am sorry." I said.

"Yeah, right." She shook her head and looked away from me. The anxiety returned in my stomach. I needed to make this right. I leaned a little bit closer to her, trying to catch her eyes.

"Look, I am really sorry about what I said, but I was panicked, worried and angry. I didn't really think of what I said and I learned my lesson. Please, can you forgive me?" I said and gave my best pleading look. Staring into her eyes, letting myself drown in them.

She shook her head looking.. dazzled? Maybe. Or my mind was playing tricks. Yeah, that was more likely. "W-Will you tell me what truly happened?" She shuttered.

Damn. How does she manage to ask the worst questions? "I-I can't tell you Bella." She looked at me incredulously.

"What? Why Edward? Are you afraid of my reaction or what?" She laughed in disbelief. She didn't know how perfectly right she was. "It can't be worse than what hapened with me at the weekend.." She said the last part so quietly that a human wasn't suppose to hear it, but unfortunately this thought crossed my mind too late.

"What happened?" Her eyes went wide with shock that I heard it. I bit the inside of my cheek and tried to remind myself to act naturally.

She was staring ahead for several moments, it looked like there was a brutal war going on in her mind. In that moment I would have given up almost anything just to hear her thoughts. At last she didn't look at me when she spoke. "I won't ask you about the accident and forgive you, if you won't ask me." This deal was far more better for me than for her, but I didn't protest.

"Deal." I smiled and she looked at me, a tiny smile played on her lips. I felt hope filling my chest.

We started the exercise and we talked. I learned a lot of things of her like shee moved across the country so her mother could be with her new husband, Phil.

When we were finished we sat in a comfortable silence. I stared out of the window watching how the snow was melting, I felt Bella's eyes on my face, it was a good think that I didn't blush easily. I wanted to hear her voice again, but I didn't know how should I start a conversation, so I said the first thing what came to my mind.

"Do you like the snow?" I scowled at myself. Really Edward? That was the best thing you had? The weather? Bella chuckled and I raised my eyebrows at her.

She shook her head smiling. "You want to talk about the weather?"

I grinned sheepishly and shrugged. "I guess so."

She answered smiling. "No, I don't like the snow. Actually nothing cold or wet-" she shuddered a bit "- I prefer warm." I kept a composed face but inside I was smiling like an idiot bevause my body heat was always warmer than average humnas'.

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After class we were walking down the hallway to her locker in silence. "Where were you last week?" She asked suddenly, catching me off guard.

"At home." I said without thinking and I saw it in her eyes that because of my answer hundreds of new questions popped into her mind. "It was a personal thing." I added.

When we reached her locker the bell rang cutting our time off with each other. I didn't even noticed how much time passed. As she was packing into her bag she tried to convince me how tea was much beter than hot chocolate(?!). I had no idea how we got there but it was fun. It was amazing how much progress we made over so little time. We were already talking like we knew each other since we were children. Maybe that was thanks to the imprinting.

"I-I need to go, I am already late." She glanced up the bell, annoyed. I managed not to smile.

"I am sorry that I held you up." I said looking deep into her eyes.

"I didn't mind it." When she spoke the words she looked embarrassed and looked down, probably hiding a beautiful blush. I wanted to see the red cloring her cheeks. My thoughts wandered if I could see her blush in other parts of her body. I shuddered at the thought and held back a groan. I needed to touch her somehow, even just a little.

I bravely put a finger under her jaw, feeling an electrical current ran up my arm. It wasn't painful, no, it was highly pleasurable. I heard her gasp at the feeling. "Neither me." I said as I caressed her cheek, watching as she got redder.

I stepped back, letting my hand down. I instantly missed her skin against mine, no matter how little the connection was. I knew I made a mistake by touching her. Now I just craved for more.

She looked at me shyly and turned around. She stumbled a bit and I chuckled. She looked back once more before she was out of my sight. I sighed and leaned against the lockers.

I was so gone.

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