Edward the Wolf (twilight fanfiction)

Chapter 4

Decision

I sat there stunned and motionless as I let the emotions run over me. I never felt this kind of love and protectiveness. I just wanted to pull her into my arms and hold her forever. I felt our souls connect when we looked into each others' eyes.

Now I understood everything what I felt yesterday and today. It was the girl. It was Bella. That's why I wanted to come back to Forks and to the school so desperately. Now I understood why I felt the anger when I heard the boys talking about her.

"Edward?" I heard Jasper's voice in the distance. I was lost in my thoughts.

I imprinted. But why? Why now?! It shouldn't have happened. My life was as simple as it could be and BOOM! Of course something like this had to happen now. I had my depression under control and the nightmares weren't as bad as they used to be. I had a routine and a peaceful life but of course I needed to imprint.

I didn't deserve her and she didn't need me in her life. I was just trouble. I could hurt her easily and that would cause me pain too. I needed to fight against the imprint to keep both of us from hurt. I held back a grimace and I resisted the urge to rub my chest where in theory my heart was, but now it felt like there was just a hole there. But I would gladly suffer till she was safe.

"Edward!" Jasper's voice rang in my ears again. I closed my eyes and let out a sigh. I composed my face before turning back to them. I needed to pretend like nothing happened. If they somehow discovered that I had imprinted they would push it. And it would be harder to fight against the pull.

"Yes?"

"What's up? You didn't answer Alice." Emmett asked with a suspicious look.

I ignored his question and turned to Alice. "Sorry Alice, I didn't hear you. What did you ask?" I tried to act like I was paying full attention to her but in truth I was mostly focusing on Bella. Angela was talking to her, that was good because she was a kind girl, not like Jessica who just wanted to use Bella to have some attention. Maybe I couldn't be with her but I would do anything to make sure she was safe.

"I just asked you what do you think of her?"

"She must be a lov- good girl." I cut myself of because I remembered what I had just decided. They couldn't know about it.

Alice just hummed in response. After that the bell rang. I went unwillingly to Biology. I would probably be separated from Bella and just the thought pained me. Also Jacob Black was in this class with me. Just fantastic. Not.

When I got to class I felt joy and pain wash over me. Bella was sitting in the seat which was next to mine. I tried to decide if I should feel glad or tortured about it. When I was sitting in my seat next to her I started bouncing my foot while thinking of what to do.

I wanted to talk to her. I really did but I couldn't. Because I remembered what I was. I couldn't drag her into my world it was too dangerous for her. I was dangerous. I had even prove that in my past, I shuddered when I remembered that memory. I won't be selfish for this once.

I chuckled because I wanted to protect her, but honestly, the most dangerous thing that could harm her was me. I knew I would never hurt her intentionally, hell I couldn't even think about hurting her without feeling pain. But I was a werewolf and anything could happen.

"Hi. You must be Edward. Alice told me about you." I heard her beautiful voice greet me.

I wanted to greet her back and say a lots of other stuff but instead I just nodded a little while keeping my eyes strictly on the front. I was afraid if I opened my mouth I couldn't close it again. In my peripheral vision I caught her looking at me with confusion than turning to the front with a hurt expression.

That was agony to watch. Just like the entire lesson. Sitting so close to her and not being able to speak or touch her. Sometimes she glanced at me and without thinking I always covered my left wrist with my other hand. Even though I had a long sleeved T-shirt on, which covered the scars, it still felt like she saw through it.

When the class was over I rushed out, not being able to see her face if there was any trace of hurt on it.

I just wanted to clear my head and get some fresh air. Though when I was heading outside I bumped into Jasper, he must saw my expression because he followed me without question.

Once outside I leaned against the wall and took some deep breaths in hope that the pain will loosen up.

"Edward.." he started but stopped to collect his thoughts. "What happened with you in Biology? Was that stupid Black? I swear if he hurt you.."

"No, Jasper it was nothing. I just needed to clear my head that's all." I said hoping he would just drop it, but why would he?

"I don't belive it Edward. Tell me the truth. What happened?" I sighed. How could I escape from this? But maybe it would be good to tell him the truth. He could give me advice.

"You see this girl-" I stopped when I heard them.

Bella and Jacob were walking toward his bike in the parking lot. No one was there beside them and us. I watched Black's every move. My instincts were screaming at me to grab Bella away from him. I wasn't sure yet that he was planning to do what I thought, so I stayed back with Jasper and watched.They reached Jacob's bike what was parking next to a car in the far end of the parking lot.

Jacob leaned over his bike facing away from her. But after a second he turned around with lighting speed and slammed Bella's head against the car. Her head hit the vehicle with a loud thud and I cringed from the sound before I felt rage took over my body.

I saw red.

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