Regret consumes me,
I watch you sink further and further away
Until your figure is translucent and you are a mirage.
I try to keep you trapped beside me
But I am powerless when I most need the strength.
My life has turned into one inescapable nightmare and I can't wake up.
You know that I need you but you're not there.
I cannot and simply will not understand why you don't listen to my simplistic words.
You hear them and blatantly ignore them as if they are worthless.
Blame me, project your guilt,
It's fine I deserve it, right?
How many more times can I listen to the words "it's your fault" without cracking?
After all this time I have come to realise that maybe it is me.
Maybe I am the problem,
The disappointment,
The let down.
And then you ask me why I am suffering so much.
Why I have no confidence.
Why I can't sleep.
Why I over think.
Why I care too much about other people so much so that I neglect myself.
Why I cannot breathe in all of this air.
It is because I cannot bare to be blamed again.
It is because I refuse to set myself up for disappointment.
It is because I cannot let anyone down.
After all this time, I blame myself and, for that, you can blame yourself entirely. -holly boyd
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