Silent Attention [COMPLETED]

46. Black to white

This is the last chapter. I want to thank you all for sticking with this rough story.

I don't know what I was supposed to do. I woke up and he was still there. His arms wrapped around me. He was asleep and I really didn't want to wake him. I wasn't strong enough for this. My silent crying turned into sobs. My body wracked with them, waking him up.

    "Babe why are you crying? I'm right here." He squeezed me then rolled me over. His lips came to my eyelids, trying to kiss my tears away, but they only came harder. He climbed over me and hovered, kissing me down my cheeks and to my mouth. "Let me take care of you. I can make you feel better." He kissed down my neck. "I love you so much. It hurts to see you cry."

    I was full blown ugly face crying now. I could feel my nose getting congested and my face flushing with heat. His kisses moved down further and his hands slithered up my shirt on my sides. My chest ached like never before. My sobs had grown quiet. I was having a panic attack. I felt like my body turned to a vice, locking me inside. His touch faded on my skin. I couldn't feel anything. I couldn't breath, couldn't hear anything but a loud ringing noise. My vision failed. I couldn't tell if I was seeing all black or all white. I blinked a few times. I was seeing all white. I turned my head. I could move. Nothing hurt anymore.

    I looked around seeing nothing but white. Hearing nothing but silence. I looked down at my hand and watched my fingers move. I could see just fine. I was sitting up on a bed with white sheets. I was in a white gown. I don't understand what is going on. I looked around the room again. Someone was talking. I listened to the voice and let my eyes follow my ears. Shelly! Shelly was here to save me.

    I jumped up from my bed and hugged her. She had stopped talking and tensed under my touch. "What happened? Where am I?"

    Shelly pushed me away just enough to see my face. "You're in the hospital. You've been here for almost a year." She kept talking but I couldn't hear her voice anymore. A year. No no, that wasn't right. I don't remember any of this. I sat back on the corner of the bed. I pulled my knees up to my chest and held my hands over my head. Then all I saw was white.

    "Nurse! Nurse!" I ran out of the room. This is the kind of shit that made me wonder if visiting Gemma was the right thing to do. She only had these kinds of episodes when I came. It always started out with her looking like the old her, then retreating back into her bed. I had tried telling her different things.

    The nurse came and sedated her while I waited outside the door.

    Sometimes I would tell her she was in a car wreck and was in a comma. She would stay with me longer, but she always figured it out. She always went to that corner. I don't know what I would do if this was all on me.

    "I think it's time for you to go dear." The nurse ushered me towards the exit. "She will be out for a while. You can come back tomorrow."

    I only came once a week. That is all that I could manage. Aaron had felt bad about her having an attack while spending the night with him. He had paid for everything, seeing her more than any of us. She always stayed in her current state of mind during his visits, but not mine.

    When it first happened, there was hope she would come through, but after two weeks the doctors didn't want to say those words anymore. They said it was brought on by stress. That one of her attacks had gotten so bad she went into a self induced coma of sorts. She could still hear move and think like anyone else, she just wasn't letting her mind control her body. She had just shut down.

    I cried over it for months. She was my best friend and now she's gone to me. Aaron has been a godsend in all of this. He has helped her so much.

That's it. I like my twist, but I was wondering what you thought of it? Or if you could comment how many stars the book was overall that would be super awesome!!!