Despite the fact its been a day, Ashton still kept himself shut. He couldn't understand Liam at all and he didn't even cared anymore that Liam told him lies all of those years. Right now he was griefing all over again on his dead parents that apparently died long befor he thought.
Ashton wanted so bad to just feel his parents again, he wanted to bury them properly, he wanted to make sure they're in a better place.
But he didn't even know if he believed in heaven anymore.
He was breathing hard the entire day and calming down was harder then ever because he couldn't seem to hold himself back anymore. He stood in the cold air again and his arms were dropped to his sides with strong fists that threatened to be throwen on something.
"I hate this. I hate this feeling."
"You just need to learn to control it." Luke spoke from the porch, watching Ashton struggeling with himself.
"I don't want to." Ashton took in another sharp breathe.
"Just kill me already." Ashton mumbled and let himself fall on his knees.
"Ashton." Luke spoke a bit sternly,
"I hate Liam, he makes me want to,"
"Kill him?" Luke suggested.
"No." Ashton shoke his head.
They both stayed silent and Ashton kept kneeling on the soft grass while panting hard.
"I don't know if I should help you." Luke walked closer to him until he stood beside him.
"To make it go away?"
"Yes. It'll help in the short term but it won't do you any good in the long term."
"Like my blood does to you." Ashton looked up to meet Luke's gaze.
"How do you know?"
"I read it in the book your friend gave you."
And it was true, Luke and Ashton were bad for eachother in all possible reasons. Ashton's blood was addicting but it wasn't good for vampires, eventually it will slow their desire to blood and slowling that urge will make them become weaker because blood was the thing that drived them.
Luke's powers or blood will do the same to Ashton only it will work differently. If Ashtons body will get used to the help he's getting everytime he's in pain, it will slow his healing process and his system.
Luke reached his hand out for Ashton to take and when Ashton took it, he pulled him to stand. They were now facing eachother and Luke felt Ashton's burning body while Ashton felt the opposite, his coldness.
Ashton didn't had the brave to look up and meet Luke's eyes, like Luke was doing shamelessly. That was until Luke coped both of his cheeks and then pressed their lips together harshly, moving them fast.
This time Ashton wasn't surprised and he melted into the kiss while Luke darted his hands along Ashton's arm and pushed him back until he was leaning on the wall of Luke's house.
"Luke." Ashton muttered into the kiss and it only drived Luke more crazy, he pressed Ashton harder against the wall and then his hands found Ashtons thighs, lifting him up and signaling Ashton to wrap his legs around him.
But Ashton didn't and moments later, he tore apart their lips.
It took him a few moments to calm down and he let his head rest against the wall.
"You're going too fast."
"I know." Luke smiled.
"Let me down." Ashton moved a bit, signaling Luke to release him to the ground. Luke moved back a bit and let Ashton put his legs on the ground.
"Its weird. You're weird." Ashton leaned on the wall.
"No its not, never did that in the shell?"
"No." Ashton didn't blushed or anything. They didn't had time for those kind of things in the shell and he never experienced it.
"Too bad, you missed a lot." Luke whispered against his lips.
"There was never a point." Ashton mumbled back, having a hard time to talk when Luke's lips almost rested on his.
"Why not?" Luke trapped him by placeing his hands on the wall besides Ashton's head.
"Surviving was the real matter."
"Its not anoymore."
"For me it is."
"It doesn't matter, its not a relationship, its just fun." Luke leaned a bit closer.
"Fun?"
"Yes. I don't do relationships."
Ashton couldn't bring himself to say a thing now, Luke rested his lips on his and this time he didn't move them, he waited for Ashton to make the first move.
"You're such a boy, do you even know how to kiss?" Luke teased still against Ashton's lips when Ashton became inscure and froze, but that comment made him want to show Luke that his ego shouldn't be that high and he found himself kissing Luke gently and it was somehow was enough to paralyze Luke and just want more so this time he let Ashton take control while he enjoyed Ashton's lips.
Ashton disconnected their lips and Luke opened his eyes to look at him.
"I'm giving you some air time." Ashton smiled and his dimples showed. Luke chuckled back and smiled.
"I don't need it."
"Yeah you do." Ashton pushed him back lightly and let himself out from Lukes captivation. He created a bit of a distance between them and then looked at Luke again.
"Why are you letting this happen?"
"Let what happen?" Luke crossed his arms on his chest and amusement laced in his voice.
"Letting me stay, the kisses, and you don't bite me anymore."
"I'm trying to stop."
"Why?"
"Because I don't want to ask for a permission." Luke joked and his eyes flashed amusement once again, making Ashton fight his smile.
"You should stop because it will do you bad, not because you don't want to lower your ego."
"You're getting brave." Luke raised his eyebrow.
"I always was."
