Can this be?

Chapter 24

Alex's POV

Knowing that Tobin went through all of that absolutely devastated me.

She's such a sweet, courageous, and funny person. Her parents are such cold hearted people to ever do something like that to her.

My story is sort of similar to hers, but hers is far more worse than mine.

Now it's time to tell her about my past life, she deserves to know. She's only the second person to know this out of everyone that I know.

"So uh, I guess I'll start from the beginning. Sorry if my story is long, but I take time to explain things cause This is my first time telling my full story, but I've told part of my story to one of my best friends Kelley. So, I was the only child growing up, I had no sisters or brothers. But my parents, they always wanted that prefect life. Perfect family, perfect house, perfect jobs, and they pretty much had that. Until I started to find out I was gay. I was in 6th grade, I know it sounds young but I just knew I was different from all the other girls. I never obsessed over the guys.. but I did about the girls. I always had these feelings for girls and I didn't know why. Until one day, I actually kissed a girl. We were at on of my friends birthday parties and we were playing spin the bottle in her room. So it was my turn to spin and when I spun it, it landed on this one girl, her name was Sasha and she was like another one of the popular girls in our school. I'm pretty sure she was straight by the face she made when she saw it landed on her but I really didn't care that it landed on her, I was actually kind of excited. So we both stood up and walked into the center of the big circle, she looked annoyed and kind of scared but I was the complete opposite, I wanted to kiss her but I didn't known why. So the people around us started chanting 'do it, do it,do it.' So I leaned in slowly and I kissed her. I've kissed like 2 guys but never a girl, but when i kissed her, it just felt so right, like it felt better than kissing a guy. At first she didn't move but then she started kissing me back, I was surprised cause we were only in 6th grade and we were like 12 but she was a really good kisser. I thought she actually liked the kiss so I grabbed her hands but as soon as I did that, she pushed me back and I fell on my ass in front of everybody. I felt so embarrassed because everyone started laughing at me and I turned so red and I started crying so I ran out the door and called my parents to come and pick me up. When they picked me up I lied to them telling them I fell and got embarrassed in front of everyone when in reality that was a total lie. I went up to my room and just started thinking, thinking about if I was actually gay. I mean, I felt something for girls that I didn't feel for guys and when I kissed Sasha that proved my theory right, but at the time I just thought I was crazy. So the next day, when I went to school, every one was talking about it, not really about me falling on my ass which I was thankful for, but that I tried to deepen the kiss with Sasha. So, that really spread around the school quickly over the course of like 3 weeks and soon it got back to my parents that I kissed a girl and the rumor was that I kissed Sasha and that I admitted to the circle of people that I liked girls and then I ran out the door. So that's what my parents heard and they were absolutely pissed. They yelled at me telling me it was a sin to like girls, that I was a disgrace if I liked girls in that way, that the devil has gotten inside of me, and that they were going to make sure I was straight. I cried that night thinking things couldn't get any worse but I was wrong. As soon as 6th grade was over, my mom had hooked me up with this guy name Serv, he was cute but at that point, I knew I liked girls, but for the sake of keeping my relationship with my parents, I dated him. He was one of the popular kids of the school, he was one of our schools football players and as soon as I started dating him, it spread faster than the thing about me kissing Sasha. So 7th grade went by and mine and Servs relationship was still going, I was happy, but I knew this wasn't what I wanted, I was only happy cause my parents were happy but other than that, I wasn't happy cause I knew I belonged with a girl. And soon, another girl came into my life, her name was Olivia and she was one of the prettiest girls I have ever seen, I was immediately attracted to her. We started hanging out a lot and soon I didn't really hang out with Serv anymore, then to sum things up, one day while we were watching a movie at her house, we kissed and that led to us making out, and I knew I had feelings for her. But I couldn't break up with Serv just yet until I had a game plan, so me and her kept our relationship on the down-low until I could break up with Serv. I continued that until the beginning of my freshman year of highschool. I broke up with him and I told him that I never really liked him and that I was forced into the relationship. He got really angry at me, and he started yelling at me, I didn't think much of it until he slapped me across the face and called me a dirty cheating dyke. Then I pushed him and tried to run but he yanked me by the hair and started forcing himself upon me, I tried kicking and screaming for help but it wouldn't work, he tore of my shirt and started touching me. I kept screaming but nobody would come and help, it kept going and then when I felt like giving up, Olivia came to my rescue and pushed him off of me. He sat there crying but still full of rage but he didn't come after me but instead said that I was going to regret my decision and that It may not happen soon, but one day he will make me his and that he will come back to rightfully take what's his. I was so scared of him and I just didn't know what to think anymore. Olivia took me to her house and I ended up spending the night there, until my parents called telling me I better come home. I told them I was at my best friend Kelleys house but they still didn't break, so I got up and left, when I got there my parents were pissed again, but this time they were filled with rage. They yelled at me, calling me a dyke, a disgrace, and a bunch of other names, then my mother slapped me across the face and grabbed her belt off of her jeans and just started hitting me over and over again. She said this was for being gay, for being a disgrace, and that hopefully I would learn to be the child I was supposed to be. She did that for about half an hour, just hitting me over and over and over again, and then told me to go upstairs and don't show my face again tonight. I was absolutely terrified of my mother now so I ran upstairs without even saying another word to her. I had bruises all over my arms, stomach, back, and legs and I didn't go to school for the week in order to hide all of my bruises. After being at home for the week, I decided to go to school again, but when I went down stairs, I was met by not only my parents, but a guy who I had no clue but I've seen him around school. He Introduced himself and his name was Lucas. He was a good looking guy and he was funny, but I had feelings for someone else, plus I didn't like guys in that way no matter if my mom beat me that day or not. But my mom told me that Lucas was actually here to take me to school and that I was going on a date with him Saturday and that I was breaking up with my girlfriend. I was still scared of my mother so the only thing I could do is agree with her if I wanted to stay on her good side. I didn't want to end things with Olivia but if I explained things to her, ultimately I knew she would understand. So I got to school and I told her about my mother and what she said to me, Olivia was heartbroken like me but she did understand what was going on and she told me that she still cares about me and that we would still be friends. I felt relived that she said that cause I was scared she wouldn't accept it." I start but then I realize if I go at this pace, my story telling would never end so I kind of have to speed up what happened with Lucas.

"So uh, time skip to after I just graduated my senior year of high school. I was 18 but my parents still took charge of me and I couldn't really do anything since they still payed for all of my stuff, and plus, still, even tho it happened a while ago, I was still terrified of my mom cause I knew she hated me and would hurt me any day if she wanted to. So I was still dating Lucas, I had actually moved in with him he was 2 years older than me and owned his own apartment, plus my parents kind of forced me into living with him... I noticed for a couple months now that he was acting really weird, like he always seemed sort of weird and he had a lot of mood swings. He also tried to force himself upon me even tho I've told him to stop. So one day, I decided to see if he was hiding anything while he went off to work. I honestly didn't know where he worked, but he made a lot of money. My best friend Kelley said to make sure he wasn't hiding like drugs or something, she was joking but when I thought about what she said, I could be possible. So I looked around in his room and when I looked in his closet, I found a container and when I opened up, I found that it was full of all of these type of drugs. I immediately let my instincts take over and I threw all of it down the toilet and drain, I couldn't believe he was doing such a thing, especially behind my back cause I could get in some serious trouble, but right then, I knew I had to confront and break up with him, but I didn't really care about it, I was actually kind of glad. So as soon as he got home I told him I was breaking up with him, when he asked why I told him that I found his stash and that I threw it all away. He turned a deep red and he started balling his fist and clenching his jaw. We started yelling at each other and I knew I had to get away before it got carried away. But when I tried to leave, he yanked me back by the hair and starting beating me. He hit me with the belt he was wearing with as much force as he could and it stung like hell. I begged for him to stop and eventually he stopped beating me but he said this was going to happen until he got all of his stuff back. He continued to do this to me for months and months and told me if I ever told anyone, he had connections to not only the police, but other people who wouldn't mind hurting me, so I never told anyone, not even Kelley. Things kept getting worse and worse, eventually he got tired of just beating me so he stared raping me. He did this to me almost everyday, He made me take birth control pills so I would get pregnant but he continued to do this for months until one day I couldn't take it anymore. I had dealt with it for so many months that I couldn't handle it any longer. I called Kelley and told her everything. She came told his apartment and took me. She took me away from him and we left him a note saying that if he ever tried looking for me or taking me, I would ultimately find someone and have him put In jail for a long time. I called my parents and told them that I don't ever want to talk to them and that I don't care if I'm their daughter or not anymore... So I lived with Kelley and she helped me get my life back together, I went to a community college, got a job, never talked to Serv, my parents, or Lucas since their events happened. And I got my life together." I say as I take a deep breath to keep the tears from falling now.

"Now, you're the only person other than Kelley who knows, and I Hope you know that I trust you with this. And he hasn't bothered me since then so there's no need to worry. But I have my life now, and the past is in the past, I'm just glad it's over." I say as she pulls me into a hug and I cry onto her shoulder.

Who ever knew that I would fall for someone who has dealt with so much like me.

I feel speechless, all I want to be is with her, I've told her so much... I've told her something I've only told my best friend, and I've only known her for a couple months. How is this possible?

Is it maybe... That theses feelings are possibly, more than just liking her? Can we actually be?

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Authors note--- Hey guys sorry for not updating in a while! But I hope u guys enjoyed this chapter. I know that Tobin and Alex have some pretty dramatic pasts but trust me when I say that this will all make sense in the end cause now I have so many idea on where this story can go. Also, please comment if I made any mistakes cause I actually had to rewrite this chapter cause when I first wrote it, it didn't go with the storyline, so u guys are lucky I love you guys enough to rewrite this chapter Lol. Anyways, like always, please vote and comment! If u have any questions feel free to ask and I will answer them ASAP. Also, there may be another update today depending on how I'm feeling cause I have a really great idea, plus I don't have anything to do so I may write another chapter today.

But like always, vote, comment, ask questions, and have an awesome day!

Stay awesome possums!

-author :)