Shit, he looks so fucking good.
His hair is longer than before, believe it or not, and just touches his shoulders. He definitely looks more built also. He is the definition of a hockey player, and oh my god, Cat snap out of it.
He has a girlfriend, and I have whatever this is with Calum.
Oh shit, I'm in Calums shirt.
I want to go in my room and hide, or at least change, but I can't stop staring into Ashtons eyes. It's been two years since I saw him, it's been two years since I was in his arms and that's the only place I want to be again.
"I uh-" I stutter, "I'm just gunna-" I point to my room, before quickly putting my head down and walking quickly in.
I close my door, resting the back of my head on it.
"Oh Jesus," I swear to myself, running my hands through my hair as I sit on my bed.
He's downstairs. I've wanted to be around him for two years now and here he is in my living room and I'm in my room not being able to bring myself to go even look at him.
The door opens, and half me hopes that it's Ashton, but the other half knows who is it.
"Kitten?" Calum's voice rings, and I look up at him, smiling slightly.
He lets out a small laugh, before sitting down next to me, "Well, this is awkward."
"Tell me about it."
"Luke was jacking off in the bathroom when they came, if that makes you feel better."
"Oh God," I let out a loud laugh, "What the hell, oh my god."
"They came in and I guess they were going to have some fun," Calum smirks over at me, before laying on his back,"But Grace saw me and I guess Luke was just a little too excited."
I laugh again, before laying on my back next to Calum.
I look over to him, and he does the same, "We have to go back out there," I say, "It shouldn't be awkward or weird. We were all best friends, it shouldn't of changed just because we didn't see each other."
"Easy for you to say," he scoffs, "Ashtons not going to punch you in the face."
"Why would Ashton punch you in the face?" I furrow my eyebrows.
He gives me a look and I sigh, "It's been a year and a half, Cal, he's over me, he even has a girlfriend."
Calum shakes his head, "We had one unspoken rule, and I broke it."
I look over at him confused before he shakes his head again and doesn't look up, "Kitten is off limits."
I stay silent, studying his side profile as he looks at the ceiling.
"God, I can't believe I did this to him again." He runs his hands over his buzzed head.
Oh.
I then look up to the ceiling, remembering how Ashton hated Calum for years because he slept with his girlfriend.
"This is different, Calum," I sigh, "Ashton and I broke up a long time ago."
"But if you didn't move to New York, you guys wouldn't of."
I stay silent again, not being able to say anything. Would Ashton and I be together if I hadn't moved?
"But I did move to New York," I try to assure him, "And we broke up and then a year a half later you came around. He can't be mad at us for being together when he moved on too."
