Marriya's POV
It has officially been one month since I left, but it feels like an eternity. Each second here hurts more than most minutes, and somehow the hours have come together to construct long days of lonlieness. Time feels as if it is moving in reverse, yet the ache in the pit of my stomach intensifies each time the clock hand shifts position. Cole has been nothing but lovely to me, but nothing seems to have the ability to fill the Ross shaped hole in my heart.
Most of my days here have been spent confined within the walls of the small apartment. I've been so afraid of being found that I've forgotten to live. Today, however, I find myself unable to resist the feeling of the California sun on my skin. After Cole leaves for work, I find myself wandering the streets of LA with no destination in mind. It takes hours of aimless walking and bus rides before I find myself in an area that is very familiar to me. My old neighbourhood. Before long, I arrive on the beach in front of my house. My old house.
As risky as it may be, I remain standing across the street from my old home for hours. The sun gradually begins setting behind me, but I don't move. My old life is less than 50 steps away. If I just walk forward, I can go back to my family. If I as much as call out to them, I can go back to my the life where I finally found my happiness. But then I remember Ross. Despite everything we've been through, I can't deny what feels like electricity dancing along my skin knowing how close we are at this moment.
Heaadlights pour down the empty street, drawing my attention to a black car pulling up right in front of me. The driver door opens, and Cole steps out.
"I thought I would find you here," he says, walking over to me.
"How?" I question. "I didn't even plan to come back here."
"This is your home; these people are your family for better or for worse."
"I need to get out of the city," I say softly.
"I don't think you can leave without closure," Cole admits. "I think your heart will always bring you back to this place unless you find a way to let go of what Ross did."
All the thoughts clouding my brain seem to dissapear, and I am left staring silently at the house in front of me. Maybe it is so hard for me to walk away because there are so many things tieing me to this place. To let go of the pain, I need to let go of the only man I've ever loved.
"I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did. I don't think Ross meant to hurt me, but he did," I whisper weakly.
"I think the point is that we can't choose who we fall in love with," Cole responds softly. "You and Ross didn't meet by accident."
Staying silent; I nod my head.
"Marriya, you need to remember that it is going to be okay. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but some day. Say it enough and some day, you'll believe it. You have to accept the fact that things changed. It changed for a reason; people change for a reason. You need to let it go and move on with your life. It's going to be hard and you're going to feel lonely but you have to hold on, because who says the change you've been waiting for isn't just around the corner?"
"Cole, I think it's time for me to move out," I say nervously.
His jaw tenses; his eyes glassing over as his face darkens. After a few seconds, his gaze softens as it sets on me.
"You find your peace, and I'll be more than happy to send you wherever it is you want to go."
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Crazy Stupid Love
Fanfiction"She was his first, he was her last." Marriya Mitchell didn't have it easy. Her life was far from perfect, and the people around her were a constant reminder of that. She had a dad who was never there, a verbally abusive mother, a physically abusive...
