Alex's Life

Chapter 33

        I felt lonely again the next morning, I was filled with that sickening feeling that I hadn't felt in a long time. Mr. Morris was no where to be found and the nurse barely ever came in. I was alone with the hum of the tv and my thoughts for another day. The days went by slowly with constant boredom and pain, emotionally and physically.
      I felt I had no where in the world that I belonged and that struck me hard. I felt my whole body go numb and I laid there and stared at the window, I had never had a chance like this before in my life. Never had I been this high up. I felt as if the window was looking back at me daring me to jump, just to end the problem for Mr. Morris right now, but I couldn't do it. I stared at the window until my body forced me to close my eyes. I went to sleep at four in the afternoon that day, being depressed was exhausting.
      When I woke up it was eight in the morning and the nurse had already put my breakfast on the table. I ate a few bites more than I would've, but I was going to need it with what I was going to do in a day. I was being released tomorrow. After I ate breakfast at ten the nurse came in and picked up the plate and silverware she quickly hurried back in and started to take the bandage off.
     "Oh it healed up nicely and the stitches dissolved. Alright honey you are good to go to leave tomorrow. Can you straighten your elbow out?"
     I looked at my arm that I didn't even think was my own. I was horrified. My arm was skinny and pale the scars going all the way across my arm. I tried to straighten my elbow but it was sore and the pain was so great that I winced when I tried to move it. Then as instructed by the nurse I tried move my fingers and they did move just not very gracefully.
     "You are going to have to go to therapy honey to work on your elbow and your finger movements, but the infection is gone so you can go home tomorrow! Yay!" I let out a fake smile until she left the room. I stared at my arm horrified. I was allowed out of bed now so I grabbed the sling and put it on. I walked around the room on my weak knees, from not walking,and I focused on keeping balanced after about five minutes it felt normal again I ran across the room without a problem. I was definitely ready to go home.