𝓭𝓪𝓫𝓾𝓻𝓾 𝓱𝓲𝓶𝓮 𝓷𝓸 𝓲𝓽𝓪𝓶𝓲 { 𝓪𝓬𝓮 | 1 }

Chapter 5:Memory fragments

(A/N:Lol that last chapter had much feels! When it comes to feels, i just...become crazy!)

*time skip 1 week*
Itami pov
Ever since that day, Ace sort of grew concerned for me. Not that I can blame him though, I did after all just randomly hug him.

And, I'm sort of confused about my own feelings at the moment.

Since that day, I've been finding myself always wanting to be near Ace. Like if he's off doing something, I just get this strange, controlling urge to follow him everywhere...even the bathrooms.

'This crazy emotion is becoming out of control. What am I doing to myself? Why is it that I cannot get him out of my head? Why is it that I must follow him wherever he goes?'

I sighed, staring out at the night sky above me.

'Doing night shift is giving me weird thoughts.'

"But more importantly...this can't be...love can it?"I asked myself

Then, I was forcibly dragged into a flashback.

*flashback*
"Father please....why are you doing this?"I whimpered

He stared down at me."Dolor, do you know how long I've been waiting for this? For you to become my weapon of destruction? I have been waiting for almost 16 damn years! Too long!"

"Then why.....why did you kill Tsumi?! Why are you making me do this?! Don't you love our family?!"I cried

"Dolor....love to me, is like giving someone the ability to destroy you. I cannot allow myself to be taken down by something as petty as love. Because....To love is to destroy, and to be loved is to be destroyed."He hissed

He plucked a needle from the tray next to him. I was trying to struggle, but the binds were so tight on my wrists & ankles, that I just didn't really move at all.

"NO PLEASE!"I begged

"I'm pretty sure you know this, but here's a fact:While it is true that Chemical substances kills humans, it cannot kill Shinigami, but....it still hurts when Chemicals enter a Shinigami's blood stream."Lucious said

Before I could cry out for him to stop, he had already injected the Batrachotoxin into me.

I screamed out in pain, crying for the pain to stop.

The last thing I could remember, was Lucious staring down at me maliciously.

At that moment, I realized:

He wasn't my Father anymore, he was a heartless demonic man.

*flashback end*

"Itami? Itami? Itami! Itami!"

I inhaled a large amount of air, and started to hyperventilate.

"No, no, no, no, no, no!! Please no stop! Get away!"I cried
"Itami!"

My vision cleared up again, and I saw Ace staring at me with worried eyes. He had his hands on my shoulders.

I felt my lip tremble, and my eyes started to water. I let out a small, soft sob, then I started to full out cry & weep.

I had my face in my hands, the cries muffled now.

'Why did I have to remember that?'

Ace pov
She was crying in her hands, transparent tears slipping between her hands.

'Just before, she looked so scared. There was so much fear in her eyes, it looked like she was gonna have a heart attack. And who was she talking about before? She kept on saying No, Stop & Get away, just now.'

I pulled her into a hug, and held her closer to me. I wasn't really bothered by the fact that I was shirtless at the moment, Itami is crying.

I stroked her hair, trying to calm her down.

"Ace...oh god it was so horrible! H-he had killed my brother...h-he stole me from my own Mother...a-and he....he forced me into torture! Over & over he told me that if I refused, he was gonna destroy Siren island, and kill Mother! It's all my fault! If only I hadn't had that damned woman cursed inside of me....Then Tsumi would still be alive!"She cried

I didn't know what else to do, and just tried to calm her down. There was one thing that I knew clearly, its that I have to be there for her now. She can't be left alone at all.

"Itami...tell me, what happened to you?"I whispered
She looked up at me."What happened?"She asked

She pulled away from the hug.

Third pov
"What happened, is that I had found out that there is no happy ending in my life. I never got any love from 16 years old, to 18 years old. I learnt that my own Father...my own family member never, truly loved me & my family. My Father had killed my own brother. My Mother & I tried to run away to Siren island, but that hateful man kidnapped me, and built me up to the weapon I am. He only ever saw me as his weapon. I didn't want him to take over the human world with me, so I had run away, because without me, he can't kill humans." She stared at me."I never trusted anyone after that. Me...a Shinigami Siren, the kings weapon."

She wiped away her tears in a flash.

"I'm supposed to be a princess damn it! Princesses aren't supposed to be like this! They're supposed to be filled with grace, poise & have no flaws. I get it that I'm supposed to be beautiful, but...Why is it that I never feel that beauty at all? A real princess is supposed to grow up in a Fairytale, where she meets a handsome Prince, and then gets married to the Prince! But no....I never grew up in a Fairytale, that castle was a secret hell chamber. I have no grace. I can't be poise without fucking up. I have too many flaws! And the Prince...why can't I find that Prince, damn it!"She cried

"I'm no Princess....I'm just a woman with a pretty face. Men don't care about her personality, they only want her looks, not how she feels. Damn this judgmental world! They all expect pretty women to be perfect!"

In all of his life, Ace had never seen such emotions come from a woman like Itami. He knew that she knew about what people think of her, but he didn't exactly realize how  sad, frustrated, angry & melancholy she felt about it.

He knew exactly at this moment, that he was going to be there for Itami no matter what. Even if it meant breaking a few rules along the way.

It was unintentional, and he doesn't know it yet but......

Ace had fallen for her.

All because, Itami had said:

"Ace...don't leave me. You're the first person I've trusted for so long...don't leave me please."Itami begged

(A/N:AHHH THE EMOTIONS ARE WILD IN THIS OTAKU! SEE YA NEXT TIME IN THE NEXT CHAPTER!)