The Voices Inside my Head!!!!

Five months later...

After five months, it changes.
She changes.
She learns that it wasnt ever her fault so many days and months spent researching and trying to figure it out they all lead back to the same road.
Infection,
Disease,
Insanity.
Maybe she was in herself altogether a lost cause.
After five months and so many problems,
So many things that keep happening inside and it never truly goes away,
Just every word became more of a weapon; a trigger to a deeper hole she was in.
Searched for months for an answer,
Taken several test and all of them told the same thing,
That your wrong.
That you are afraid and alone.
It comes to the conclusion that an unhealthy obssession with something becomes your death.
That the positive isnt anything anymore but all she kept hearing was no,
Its not real, your ok.
But she kept giving everyrhing away because it made her feel less than,
The sheet dominance of another person was what she had craved,
A feeling of emptiness no longer valid and if that meant an hour she'd take it.
After five months, every word becoming a trigger and a wild, sadistic obssession taking over her mind,
Through her blood,
Seeping into the cracks of what she called a soul until she eventually had no soul really left.
She wanted love but since things changed; since a long time ago the prediction and realization that she wasnt worth the time a day that all this time she was in denial.
All this girl knew was that something held her back awhile now,
Something she strongly wanted and belived wasnt physically possible,
What she feared wasnt real then again what everyone fears doesnt always have to exist.