The Voices Inside my Head!!!!

Judgement

Judge and you shall be judged

Dont judge and you are still judged.

The desperation of so many to fit in,
To belong,
To bring fourth a gift that only they have.

And then theres me.

As i get older i will never truly understand the concept of hate or love,
I never truly grip why we are so judgemental.

Why cant we understand people are people?

We cant change what doesnt ask or desire change.

We cant control what we have no control over.

Instead we can stand from the sides and laugh and criticise,
Mock and muse,
Ramble about things that have nothing to with us because as people the world...

Its like that.

Your favorite things become what you fear in the open,
your sexuality is a taboo,
You dont wear what the cool kids do,
You don't have a perfect smile or a pretty face like everyone else.

In the eyes of others you arent alive.

You are what they depise because they are confused,
Afraid,
Overwhelmed.

You are beautiful.
You are worth so much.
You have a purpose but you must be patient.

Its like waiting for an eclipse to occur; the rare eclipse one that happens only once every billion years.

But patience is mutual its a virtue.

Its what i have to learn but thats harder when people around you assume so much.

That you have nothing.

You feel as if you are dying and you just wish that the pain would stop.

The voices die but the words never really do their criticism and paranoia sticks to you as if it were born to.

But you are lucky you dont join them because you know what its like.

You understand that being mocked and terrified to be yourself when its all you have.

You understand that people arent perfect and you are willing to accept it.

You understand now that we are all different and as the world grows and becomes smaller in numbers that we were judging each other for a multitude of reasons,
None of them good though.

To opress what you want,
For dominance,
For jealousy,
For anger,
For attention that went wrong,
For all the reasons that killed us to begin with.