HERS..
Looks can really be deceiving. Who would have thought that a guy so bubbly, jolly, and a people person can hide something so terrible for a long time?
I still can't get over his revelations about his life before. He doesn't deserve any of it.
After seeing him cry out that much for the first time, sobrang nanghina ako. Hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko. I am known to be one of the best advisers in our circle of friends pero ngayong yung boyfriend ko yung may kailangan ng advise, wala man lang akong maibigay.
Hindi ko alam kung magagalit ako dahil hindi niya sinabi yung mga nangyayari sa'kin. Kung maawa ba ako sa kanya. Kung magagalit ba ako sa sarili ko dahil baka ako yung nag-push sa kanya para makipagkita sa lolo niya. Hindi ko alam yung gagawin ko. Nanghihina ako, nagagalit, naiinis, lahat na naghalo-halo.
I can't stop looking at him right now as he's sleeping peacefully after being sedated by the doctor para kumalma siya.
After opening up to us kasi, nanginig siya. His hands were shaking tapos sigaw siya ng sigaw habang umiiyak pa din siya. Tintry namin siyang pakalmahin pero for the first time din, hindi ko siya mapakalma.
Napaiyak na lng din ako kanina kasi feeling ko wala akong magawa para sa kanya. I feel so useless. Sila tito and tita naman iyak lang din ng iyak.
Mas lalo akong napiyak nung naalala ko yung picture niya na walang malay tapos sinasakay sa ambulance.
FLASHBACK
Ate Dzi: Ang OA mag-react Mae ha? What are you looking at ba?
Mae just looked at me na nagpakaba sa'kin kaya lumapit ako sa kanya agad para tignan yung phone niya and after seeing what she's looking at, I lost it. My body gave in to the pressure and bomb of emotions that overflowed in my whole system.
Shit!
That's all I could think of. I went out of our dorm hysterically and shouted dahil hindi ko talaga kaya. OA for some pero kapag kayo na yung nasa ganitong situation, tingin ko mas grabe magiging reaction niyo.
I can't lose him. I don't want to lose him. I need to be with him. He needs me. I need him. God knows how much I need him.
Alam ko na pinapakalma ako ng teammates ko pero wala akong naririnig. Iyak lang ako ng iyak. Paulit ulit din ako sa pagsisi sa sarili ko for what happened.
Then the next thing I know is that we're all running papunta sa room na sinabi nung nurse when we reached the hospital. I don't even know kung paano namin nalaman na that this is the hospital where he was brought.
When I opened the door, that's when reality hit me so hard. I've been denying it kanina pa. Praying na hindi talaga si Aly yun and kamukha niya lang pero hindi eh.
Siya talaga yun.
Siya yung nasa picture na walang malay na nakahiga sa gurney with a nebulizer mask to help him breath. He looks really pale in the picture.
Hindi ko na talaga napigil yung sarili ko.
Ako: ALY!!
I shouted and ran towards his side to hug him that time. I cried a lot because of the fear of losing him. My teammates were also in the room with Aly's parents and I know lahat sila natatakot sa pwedeng mangyari kay Aly. He has no scratches, wounds, fractures nor neck braces or anything, he's just unconscious na mas delikado kasi baka may internal bleeding siya or baka head injury.
