HIS..
Why am I doing this?
Biglang pumasok yung tanong na yan sa isip ko.
Why am I doing this?
Probably to finish all the drama and to stop the pain and misery that we're all go through because of me and para maayos yung relationship naming family but ...
Why on earth am I doing this?
Technically, being the innocent child that I was before, hindi ko talaga alam kung anong nangyayari but I blamed myself for everything that's happening, wala naman akong kasalanan talaga di ba? But again...
Why am I doing this?
My mind's battling for answers while we're slowly making our way to the man inside the house. Bigla naman humangin ng malakas and when I felt the cold wind on my skin, I remembered my purpose. I have a purpose for going here.
I need my grandfather.
I need him in my life.
I need to bring back the kind of relationship back when I was a kid.
I need him because I need me.
He took a great part of me and I want it back. Hindi na sapat yung presence ng family ko, ni Dennise at lahat ng taong nakapaligid sa akin. In order to fully give myself to someone, kailangan kumpleto muna ako.
Kailangan ko siya at kailangan ko siya dahil mahal ko siya. I know that he's the missing piece. I have all the love that I don't think I deserve but I've been longing for the love coming from him.
I need him
I whispered softly, enough for only me to hear.
I focused on what's ahead of me and cleared my mind and slowly, nawala yung pangangatog na kanina ko nararamdaman. Good thing na lang na nandyan si Dennise to hold my hand and assure me that everything will be okay.
Flashbacks from when I was a kid came rushing to me. It hit me like a cannon ball. Nakaka-overwhelm sa pakiramdam.
Nostalgia.
It seems like everything is happening right at this moment while we're walking. I can clearly see myself on his back with my cape and mask on while we pretend to be a superhero then he'll run fast to make me laugh hard and para mas realistic.
