HERS..
Que sera sera, whatever will be, will be. The future's not ours to see. Que sera sera.
This song reminded me of my childhood. Back when I was still a kid, trying to figure out what my life means. Or trying to define the entire meaning of life.
That feeling of uncertainty, being a kid and not minding what the future holds. It's like a paper boat going with the flow of the water. Like the leaves, being carried away by the wind.
It didn't cross my mind that this song will still have an effect on me up until now. Matanda na ako eh. I've experienced life already. I waved at life like an old friend and journeyed with him for almost 26 years. But still I am anxious. I want know what the future holds. I want to see everything. I crave to see what happens years from now. What my life would look like. If we'll still be happy. Kung anong magiging itsura ng baby namin ni Aly. How we'll help our child or children grow to the destined person that they should be. Kung gagaling ba si Aly.
Hindi. Gagaling ang asawa ko. Lahat gagawin namin para gumaling siya. He need to be here for our fture family. I need him to be beside me.
I am a strong independent woman who depends on her husband.
Does this make sense?
Ganito kasi yun. Kaya kong tumayo sa sarili kong mga paa. I can make tough decisions on my own. I can live life and experience things alone. But Aly needs to be beside me. I need him to stand in the background and push me to do those things. I need him to inspire me to take on different things and difficult challenges. I need him because I love him not the other way around of me loving him because I need him.
Nakakaproud nga siya eh. You can really see and feel na he is not giving up. Though medyo namayat but still jolly pa din siya. May sakit man siyang nararamdaman, hindi niya pa din pinapakita. Hindi din siya nagrereklamo. Instead of whinning and being a baby, he's being a father who will do anything for his family.
He's very hands on pagdating sa diet naming dalawa na dati ako. May mga cravings na din kasi. Ang selan ko din siguro magbuntis because I crave a lot of things pero yung morning sickness, hassle.
Ganito pala yung feeling kapag buntis. Totoo pala na parang may times na wala kang gana pero nagccrave ka ng isang pagkain lang. Yung may times na gusto mo lang humiga. Pero yung nakakainis dun yung ayaw mong makita yung tao kasi mabaho siya or naiinis ka lang talaga sa kanya for no apparent reason. Tapos yung gusto ko lang na laging nakikita, eh si Daniel Padilla. Where's the difference? Magkamukha po sila!
Sabi nila baka daw pinaglilihian ko si Aly and all pero anong difference kamukha niya din yun gusto ko?
Pinagseselosan niya na nga eh and rinding rindi na siguro siya kasi wala akong ibang bukang bibig ngayon kundi Daniel. Wala din akong ibang ginawa kundi manood ng movies ng Kathniel. I admire the love team and all but hindi yung OA na I will stalk them. Or so I thought. Dumating na din kasi sa point na dahil gusto ko ngang lagi siyang nakikita, may time na niyaya ko si Aly sa shooting nung dalawa. Tapos nagkabaliktad ng partners. Buti na lang Aly's close to the both of them and understanding talaga yung dalawa.
I guess we really have yet to see what the future will bring but we are all hoping for the best.
"You're just to good to be true. I can't take my eyes off you. You feel like heaven to touch. I want to hold you so much.. "
Aly: Babe, I can sing to you live naman. Why do you have to listen to my twin?
Paano ba naman kasi ang aga aga eto na yung pinakikinggan ko. Nakakakilig din kasi. Kung paano narecord to ni Daniel, pinuntahan ko siya sa bahay nila mismo then asked him to sing this song. Grabe wala akong hiya. Kung dati parang ang weird tignan na yung mga rao super die hard talaga pero ganun yung ginagawa ko ngayon. If before okay lang akong nakikita si Daniel, ngayon as much as possible gusto ko mayakap ko siya.
Ako: Shh don't talk muna Boo.
Pagkasita ko sa kanya, he looked defeated and lied next to me tapos hugged my waist and pulled me closer. Then yung ulo niya nasa may tiyan ko. Fave spot na ng kamay niya and ulo niya yung tiyan ko. Lagi niyang hinahaplos. Lagi din niyang kinakausap and kinakantahan.
Aly: Baby, can you tell mommy na nagseselos na si daddy?
Aww cute ng baby damulag ko.
Aly: Pwede naman si daddy mag-song for mommy eh pero he wants Daniel Padilla to sing. Pangit ba voice ng daddy?
Ako: Gusto mo bang sagutin ko yan daddy?
Tumingala siya and I saw him in my peripheral vision pouting. Gigil ko ang baby.
Aly: Kiss muna.
Ako: Breezy babe.
Aly: Para-paraan siyempre. I'm missing you already.
Ako: We're always together naman ah.
Pagmamaang-maangan ko. I know what he's thinking naman kasi. And I think he got me na iniiba ko yung usapan. I saw his pilyo smile na eh.
Aly: You know that's not what I mean.
He said and playfully bit his lower lip. He's seducing me. Alam niyang weakness ko yun. Well, pareho kami ng weakness. When one of us bites his or her lower lip, rambulan na. Hahaha joke
Ako: S-stop it.
I tried so hard not to stutter but damn he's so hot. Fudge it! He is playing with me but I can't help but get hooked by how he's acting in front of me.
Aly: Do you really want me to stop?
I shivered when I felt his hand crawling up and down my thighs. He even kissed my stomach. Damn this guy. He knows na heightened yung senses ko and that I crave for him. I miss him that much.
Ako: Fuck you.
I pulled his hair para mahalikan ko siya. I heard him laughing bago maglapit yung mga labi namin. Nakakinis.
But...
Craving satisfied 😎
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