HIS..
This is the happiest day of my life.
Seeing her walking down that aisle, wearing that beautiful white gown, I never expected that it would be this overwhelming.
I've dreamed of it.
I envisioned it.
I prepared for it.
Believe me I did.
I've waited all my life for this moment.
I know my emotions would burst, it's just that I never thought that it would be too consuming. Too much happiness and adrenaline is eating me alive. I don't know how I am able to still stand up.
Sa sobrang saya napapaiyak na ako.
Para akong hihimatayin na hindi ko maintindihan. People may say na I'm overreacting pero I don't care. It is what I'm feelin right now.
Seroiusly, akala ko sa movies lang ganito yung mga lalaki para kiligin yung nanonood pero pwede din pala for normal people like us.
Every step she takes, our memories together comes flashing on my mind.
The first time I saw her.
When she became my bestfriend.
When our friendship turned into a new level.
Nung she allowed me to court her.
The fris time she said she loves me.
When she said "Yes" when I asked her if she can be my girlfriend in front of our families.
Our first kiss.
Her clingy-ness, happy days, lahat ng tampuhan and away.
That time when she never left my side nung nagkaproblema kami nila Appa.
How she took me in her arms and promised me that she will never leave me.
The first time she sang to me and made me cry like a baby.
When we bought a condo and created that as our special place, tapos yung mga moments sa loob nun.
Lahat lahat all at once.
A lot has really happened to us through out the years of being together.
And now this.
The moment I've been waiting for my whole entire life.
To see her in that white gown, walking towards me wearing her beautiful smile that melts my heart every damn time and that beautiful brown eyes na naluluha na din.
Everything is perfect.
Or not.
Everything seems perfect and that we are all happy but behind that happiness is pure sadness.
Sadness that is caused by something we never saw and expected to happen.
Sadness that almost ruined our relationship.
And that same sadness that brought us to this moment of perfection.
If you are to ask me what I'm really feeling, I would give you a sad smile and say that I am happy but most of all sad.
I don't really know how we got to this point.
