HIS...
Can you believe it? Magiging tatay na ako. In 9 months, we'll officially be a family. Den is my family but iba pa din yung magiging magulang na kayo. Iba yung excitement and yung feeling. Hindi lang yung dogs namin yung babies namin. We'll actually have a real life baby. Yung gagapang, iiyak, magsasalita, tatawa. Nakaka-excite talaga.
I know it's possible because we often make love but unexpected pa din because she's busy with med school and I'm busy with our shops and well tambay ako sa hospital para gumaling agad. Sana lang may patunguhan yung pagtamabay ko. Kasi, I can't wait to see my baby. I badly want to hug my baby tight and just make him/her feel that we are excited to meet him/her. We love him/her so damn much that we'll do anything to make him/her happy. Sana malakas pa ako kapag nagkita kami.
Kaya ko naman 'to di ba?
I have a lot of plans in my mind already. Like, pupunta kami ng Disneyland tapos we're going to ride all the rides there. We'll buy all the toys na gusto niya. We'll go to all the amusement parks around the world. Maglalaro kami ng outdoor sports. Tapos tuturuan ko siya how to count, write and speak. I'll sing lullabies sa kanya tapos I'll read bedtime stories para makatulog siya. Then I'll send him/her to a great school. He/she will have the best things in life.
But most especially, we will make him/her feel important and kahit na we give all the things na gusto niya,tuturuan namin siyang maging humble and grateful. We will instill good values sa kanya. Hindi namin hahayaang maging mayabang siya or makasarili. We may give him/her all the worldly things but we will make sure that he/she will be selfless. He/she will be a God fearing and loving person.
I remembered the first time tuloy that I laid my eyes on Ino. Siya ang unang baby ng "barkada" kaya siya yung spoiled sa mga ninong at ninang. Being his ninong and kaibigan ni Ate Fille, I went to the hospital with Ella kasi to visit ng hindi kasama si Den kasi may class siya. The moment I saw Ate Fille carrying Ino, ang nasabi ko na lang,
"Soon."
It was one of those rare moments na nainggit ako. Gusto ko din magkaroon nga ganun. Gusto ko kami din ni Dennise. I asked if I could carry him and buti pumayag si Ate Fille. And that time na Ino looked at me, I saw my future with Dennise. I imagined her holding our son or daughter while smiling from ear to ear. I saw myself being a cool dad na lahat gagawin to make his family happy. I want to make them happy.
Hindi ko matanggal yung ngiti sa labi ko. Iba pala talaga kasi yung pakiramdam na may hawak kang baby.
Nakakagigil na nakakakaba. Yung gusto mong lapirutin yung pisngi kaya lang natatakot ka kasi baka umiyak or baka masaktan.
Yung gusto mong amoy amuyin kasi ang bango kaya lang baka mainis.
ARGGHH GIGIL! 😂
"Babe, can you move a little? I'm feeling numb already."
Dennise said that popped the bubble inside my head. Kanina pa kasi ako nakahiga sa malapit sa tummy niya and hinahalik halikan ko siya doon while she's brushing my hair with her hands. Wala eh lambing ko sila ni baby eh.
I've been out of the hospital for days and naggagamot pa din ako to prevent the pains that I may feel and to hopefully cure my illness. More reason to fight kasi nabigyan ako ng bagong rason para lumaban. Gusto ko nang gumaling. Everyone's positive naman about my condition since they can see some improvements again and sana magpatuloy na.
Gustong gusto ko na kasi mabalik yun dating sigla ng katawan ko. Gusto ko na mabalik yung dating ako. I honestly miss playing the sport that I love. I miss playing for our country. Parang hindi na enough yung basketball and volleyball camps that Den and our friends put up to help young bloods. Namimiss ko na yung second home ko, the court.
