Poetic Excuses

Holding Back

No one will understand,
I'm fine with that.

I am returning to normal,
Could I get a second chance?

I cry because of him,
I just can't hold it back.

The one who taught me to trust visited me,
He told me there should be no reason I am holding back.

Yet here I am,
Sitting in the dark.

Tears stream down my face,
I can't get him out of my head.

I'm tired of the internal tears,
But I'm holding back.

Everyone thinks I haven't moved on from him,
I am holding back the secret.

Part of me wishing pain for him,
Half of me wants him safe.

I can't cry anymore,
So I'm holding back.

I want to let it all out into someone's shoulder,
I am still holding it all back.

I can't show my weakness,
It must be held back.

It seems my pain is all slipping through the crack.

He sees it.
He sees it all.

But still....
I'm holding back.