Poetic Excuses

Begging

She is begging me to come back,
To change.

She keeps asking me to leave you and return to her,
To go back to my depression.

I'm happier now. I don't want to change. I love them, they haven't left me. I don't want to go back. To return to you. I have moved on. I feel better about myself. I don't want to see you anymore, but I can't tell you that. I can't tell you I don't care because I still do. I want to return to you but I can't I want to tell you I don't try but I can't. I can't tell you I don't want anything to do with you, that I don't want you to see me. I can't say these things because I know they will hurt you and I still care. I can't tell you by myself. I don't understand why you don't like her, after everything she has done for me. I don't understand.

Stop begging me to change. If I change again, I won't be happy. If I change again, the bullies will come back. Stop begging me.