Secrets. (Asa Butterfield Sequel to 'Changes')

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After cleaning the mess we decided to just order a pizza later on and have a movie day.

I was laying on the sofa leaning against Asa's chest wearing one of his shirts and nothing else. It was a little bit cold so I was snuggling into him to keep warm.

"You're so snuggly Ace, like a big teddy bear!" I giggled childishly.

"Is that meant to be a compliment?" He said, starting to tickle my sides.

"A-Ace!!" I managed to squeak out. I was really ticklish mostly everywhere but my sides were just the worst place ever. "Fuck off!" I yelled through my laughter.

He stopped after a couple of minutes, "your face is so red you look like you're about to pass out. That's the only reason I stopped." He chuckled while stroking my cheeks.

I breathed heavily and gave him two middle fingers, "you know that's where I'm most ticklish Asa!" I said through breaths, giggling.

"Exactly," he kissed my head and hugged me. I laid against his chest again and focused on the movie that was on the screen. The Fault in our Stars, my favorite.

"Why are we watching this movie again? It's so sad." Asa said making a cute little pouty face. I poked his lips gently.

"Because! I love it, and although it's heartbreaking it's also really cute. Afterwards we can watch something happier." I smiled and kissed his lips.

After a few minutes sitting in silence, me watching the movie, Asa started to put his hand up my (actually, his) shirt. That sneaky bastard!

"Do you mind?" I said, slapping his hand away gently.

"What? You're not wearing a bra," he smirked and put his hands on my boobs through the shirt.

I laughed and said playfully, "if it makes you happy I suppose you can play with my boobs."

His face just lit up as soon as I said that. He put his hands up the shirt again and started to massage them. Not gonna lie, it felt good.

**

After an hour or so, the movie was ended and I was in tears. "Gets me every time." I said to myself, blowing my nose into a tissue.

Asa had tears in his eyes himself but he was trying so hard to keep them in. "God that's just so heartbreaking," he said, rubbing his eyes.

I nodded, sniffling. "Ace?"

"Mhm?"

"Will we ever get married?"

As soon as I said that, his face fell a little. I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion. Honestly, I was thinking he was going to pop the question some time soon.. Judging by the look on his face I think I thought wrong.

"I-I mean.." He started, stuttering. "I.. I don't know."

I felt my heart drop. "Wait.. What?" I choked out. "I-I mean it's fine if you don't want too it's just.. Don't you have any faith in our relationship?"

"Oh Gemma, of course I do!! I just--" he trailed off. I looked down. I've always wanted to get married, ever since I was little I'd been planning my wedding. Sounds silly I know, but I already knew what type of dress I wanted and everything.

"I just thought that.. With the babies and all you'd finally ask me too.." I said, sniffling. I don't know why I was so upset over this. I suppose it was because, even though we were so young, people from our old high school were starting to get engaged. I wanted that too.

"Oh so just because you're pregnant you expected me to ask you to marry me? This isn't the 1940's Gem, you can bring babies into the world without the parents being married you know?"

I stood up, feeling my face heat up with anger. "When did I say you couldn't? I just.. Thought you would, that's all!"

"Well you thought wrong!" He yelled. I felt my face crumple, and some hot tears slip down my cheeks. "G-Gem.. I'm sorry, I didn't mean--" I put my hand up to stop him talking.

"Honestly, I don't want to fucking hear it. You don't want to get married to me, I get it! Sorry for just wanting to spend the rest of my life with you." I rolled my eyes and stormed upstairs.

I heard Asa get up and follow me. It amazes me how quick your emotions can change, one minute Asa and I were all cuddled up on the sofa and the next we we arguing.

"Gem wait, I can explain." He grabbed my arm and spun me around to face him.

"Honestly, I get it. It's fine Asa, I don't want to hear it. It's just the way you handled it, that's why I'm upset." I shook my head and went into the bedroom, laying down on the bed facing the ceiling.

I felt the bed dip and a pair of arms around me. I sighed, trying to resist snuggling into him. It was hard though, so after a while I rested my head on his chest and pressed my body against his.

"I do really love you Gemma, you know that right?"

Right now, I wasn't so sure but I just nodded. Arguing wasn't good for me or the babies, and they were my main priorities right now.