Knock Me Out

Chapter 4

One minute later he comes back with a blanket, lays down behind me on the couch and covers us both.

He puts his strong arms around me and kisses neck. I really admire how loving he is after we've had sex, he's literally every girls dream guy.

Yet here I am playing with him like this. I wish I could love him the way he wants me to, but if I can't, then I can't and I will not force it.

"I love you Chaniëlle, I really do" he says kissing my neck.

"I know baby, I know" I assure him. I feel his smile against my neck and he pulls me closer to him, holding me tighter.

I keep thinking about the way he always tells me he loves me just before we have sex.

It's like a habit to him and he's been doing it since the first time.

I used to hate it, cause it turned me off, but now I'm used to it.

When I asked him why he always does that, he said it was an action of hope.

I didn't get him, so he explained that he always hopes and keeps believing that one day when he says it I'll tell him I love him too and that he wanted me to know that he's not sleeping with me just for pleasure, but because he truly loves me. I just rolled my eyes at him that day.

"So what have you been up to lately" he asks.

"Nothing new, just the usual" I chuckle.

"You sure, cause I heard that you and Selena became best friends" he says.

"Me and who are what?" I ask raising my voice.

I attempt to sit up, but he holds me tighter so I won't be able to move.

"You and Selena. I thought it was a lie, but she posted something on Facebook" he says

"We're not friends. There was some sort of accident and I helped her out and that's all. Why would she think we're suddenly friends"

"Wait what? What happened to her. I know you either must have felt guilty for something or it must have been something bad if you helped her, seeing the fact that you don't like her." he says.

This guy knows me too well, better than anyone else for that matter.

I explain everything that happened that day with Selena to him.

"I love it when you show your good sides to people other than me and Megan. You're not as horrible as you make people believe you are" he places a kiss on my ear. I smile and don't say anything.

"Maybe she thought differently. Let me show you her status" he lifts himself from the couch and reaches for his phone that is on the table.
"Here it is" he says and hands me his phone.

*this is officially one of my best birthdays, cause I made a new friend and it's someone I've been dying to be friends with. Love you CR😘❤* her status reads.

I laugh and shake my head. I didn't even know it was her birthday and  I'm not in the mood to get into Selena's bullshit. I know she's probably expecting me to comment on that, but I won't waste my time doing that.

"Desperate bitch!" I say and hand Christian his phone. He smiles.

"Picture?" He asks as he holds his phone in front of us in attempt to take a picture.