Knock Me Out

Chapter 78

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"Ma'am you have to through the other door." The security guard says stopping me from entering the building. 

"Excuse me?" I ask. I look around trying to see who he's talking to. Nope... he's talking to me.

"You have to go through the security check, cause this door is for staff members only." He smiles. "Over there"

He points toward the door where guests enter and I smile noticing that he doesn't know me.

"Oh. I'm not a guest. How long have you worked here?" I aks.

"Two years and a few months and I've never seen you here before even though you kind of look familiar. I'm sorry, but I love this job and I don't want to get fired, so can you please go through the other door. I don't want to be rude like the other security guards either." He says nervously.

I smile at him battling within me whether I should just tell him that I'm technically his boss or just go through security.

I take a few steps back and decide to go through the other door. He'll find out who I am sooner or later.

"Sunshine" Sean's voice says behind me and I turn around.

"Sean" I say with a smile that fades away quickly when I look at him. "What happened?"

"Let's get inside first" he says clearly forcing a smile onto his face.

After Sean writes his name and shows the woman at the counter his identification we turn to walk to the main office.

"Ma'am? Your identification please" the woman smiles at me.

I roll my eyes and point towards the large picture of me that is hung right next to my father's and my grandfather's and ask "Will that do?"

Her eyes widen a little when she looks at it. "Oh! Miss Righters! I'm so sorry... I..I'm new here and I..." she stutters.

Like seriously. How can people be working in a place and not pay attention to the gigantic pictures on the walls? Yeah, I am a lot younger on that picture, but I literally look the same.

"Don't worry about it" I smile and walk away with Sean beside me.

The main office has everything and I do mean everything in it. I get two Cokes out of the small refrigerator and give one to Sean.  
"Pizza?" I ask, taking a slice out of the box.

"No, thank you. I'm not hungy" he says with a weak smile.

"You either eat or I'll make you eat." I threaten. He chuckles knowing that I'd do it for sure and takes a slice.

"One slice then" he says and takes a small bite.

His eyes are bloodshot and swollen. His face looks pale and his hair that is usually styled and neat, is very messy. And I don't mean the sexy kind of messy.

After I persuade him into eating more than two slices it gets quiet in the room. I take my shoes off and pull my feet onto the couch.

"You wanna tell me what happened?" I ask softly.

He sighs deeply and says "Cam broke up with me."

"Wait, what? Come again" I say confused.

"She.. umm broke up with me... over some guy she met online. She said she was in a 'dilemma' and she needed time to sort things out. So I gave her the time she asked for. She said that I shouldn't call her because she needs some space and that she would call me when she had it all figured out. Well... I'm still waiting for that call, while she goes on dates with that other guy." A humorless chuckle leaves his lips.

"Sean...-" I start but he cuts me off.

"Please don't say anything. I really just want to get all of this of my chest." He says.

I'm actually glad he said that, because I don't know what to say.
I nod.

"What more could I have done to show her that I really love her?" He asks softly after a few minutes of silence. "I've done everything I could think of. She treated me like shit most of the time, but I stuck around because of my feelings for her. I should have given up on her a long time ago, but I didn't. I tried. I really did, but when some rich guy shows up in the picture she turns to him. I always knew she was a little materialistic, but I never thought she'd go this far. I was wrong. He wins, because he has more money. So you know what I said to myself? I said: Sean... fuck it. You can't kill yourself for someone who doesn't care about you and your feelings. I've lost enough friends while defending her and I want to regret that, but I still can't find it in me. My 'friends' call me pathetic and stupid and a pussy and a lot of other names for staying with her. Right now they're laughing at me, because what they predicted turned out to be true. I shouldn't be bothering you with this, but I don't have anyone else to go to. I made the mistake of dropping all of my real friends for her and now look at me. I'm not even sure if I hate her or not. I'm not sure if I'm mad at her or not. I'm not even sure if I'm over her or not. I'm not even sure of how I feel right now. I say 'fuck it' one moment, but I say 'I miss her' the next. I haven't slept in four days, I haven't shed one tear and I haven't eaten anything until now. I've spend such a long time caring about her, trying to take care of her, while forgetting to do those things for myself."

Tears start streaming down his face as he keeps his face as straight as possible. He's not showing any emotion apart from the tears that don't seem to have an end.

He goes on getting things off his chest as I stay quiet during it all. He's been through so much more than he's told me before. He felt different and at peace when he was with Camilla and that's why it was so hard for him to let go of her. She was like his anchor, but now she's the one pulling him down.

He's asleep now and every now and then he continues talking in his sleep. I've lost track of time as the hours fly by. A light knock on the door leads me to it and I open it.

"Yes?" I ask when I see the security guard from this afternoon behind the door.

"Ma'am. I just wanted to inform you that nearly everyone has left." He says looking down.

"Okay. We'll be right out." I answer.

"And ma'am?" He calls before I close the door. "I'm sorry for what happened earlier today. I swear I didn't know who you were and I...-" He says rushed

"No, it's okay." I answer.

"So umm... I'm not fired?" He asks nervously.

"What? No. Of course not. It's fine, really."

"Okay. Thank you ma'am." He smiles and walks away.

I discard the empty cans and the pizza box, before checking if everything is as it was before we came in here. Chris hasn't called yet, so I make a mental note to myself to call him as soon as I get home.

As much as I wanted Sean to rest seeing the fact that he hasn't had much of it these days, I have to wake him up so we can leave. I drop him off at home where his mother opens the door with a worried look on her face.

After a short formal conversation I head home and call my baby. I miss his voice. We spoke on the phone until I fell asleep. I told him all about my day skipping anything that has to do with Megan's relationship or Sean's relationship. That's not my story to tell.

The next morning the first thing I see when the screen of my phone lights up is a text from Justin saying "Need to talk to you"

I sigh.

All I can do right now is pray that it's nothing too serious. Which I doubt of course.
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That's it for today guys. Not really in the mood for anything, but I hope you enjoyed this chapter.

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