A Months Notice

Chapter Twenty-Three

Jack and Katherine where sitting in the couch . It was rather late at night and The two had been kissing .

"Katherine ? We should head off to bed it's pretty late " Jack said to her running his hands up and down her leg .

There was no response. Jack looked down and saw her sleeping . Jack smiled and picked her and carried her bridal style to bed .

She was wearing a dress that wouldn't be comfortable to sleep in . Jack took a deep breath and took off her dress . Thank god she had on a slip .

Jack got her corset off and then went to get dressed .

He came back and she was already near his side . He slipped in the covers and hung on to her "good night Katherine " he said and fell asleep .

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The light seeped in . It was probably 10:30 , they got to sleep that late .

"Jack?" Katherine asked slightly shaking him .

"Hmmm ?" He turned to her. Jack looked at her . Katherine's hair was all over and the blankets where up to her chin.

"It's late , don't we leave tomorrow?" Katherine asked him and cuddled up to him more .

"Today , the press conference got canceled... We'll leave in like an hour or so " he said and then kissed her .

Katherine pulled him closer and kissed him as well . They were both very happy with this whole friends with benefits thing .

"Jack " Katherine said as he trailed down to kiss her neck .

He took his lips off her neck and sat up on top of her . His weight was slowly crushing her . "Yes ?"

"Can I ask you something ?"

"Yes ?" And he got off of her and started to grab a shirt and tie as well as pants for the day .

Katherine sat up "Did you want a baby ?" Katherine asked him you immediately regretting her words

"Why ? Are you pregnant?" He asked her slightly angry

"No , goodness no ! But I was only asking .... You just seem to have this connection with kids and I didn't know -" Katherine trailed off looking at him .

"No , I don't . Sure kids are nice but I don't even want a relationship let alone a baby " Jack told her as he looked in the mirror to tie his tie .

"Oh ..... " Katherine said getting up .

"Why ? Did you want a baby ?" Jack asked her .

"No , I just wanted to see if we where on the same page .... Which we are " she told Jack and went to get dressed .

Katherine went to the bathroom and turned the shower on and as soon as she stepped in she couldn't tell the difference between the water and her tears .

I get he doesn't want a baby . Understand that ! I'm not pregnant so everything is okay but he doesn't want a relationship..... That's not the type of thing you say to your wife .... True he has been so much happier now that well ..... Now we're just "friends with benefits " but ..... I can't live the rest of my life like this ! I mean eventually I'll want a baby .... I mean .... When I'm 18 we need to start trying ......

A baby would be so wonderful . Part me part him . He's so handsome and I'm sure that would be passed on to the baby . Either boy or girl .

Oh I want a baby ..... I do ! I've made up my mind .... I want a baby .... No I NEED a baby . It will give me something to do since I do nothing all day .... And someone to love !

Clearly Jack doesn't want to love me ! He doesn't even want a friendship all he wants is for me to kiss him wherever or whenever he needs or wants it .

He doesn't want any emotions and I agreed to that but I've changed my mind .

A baby is all I want ..... Everyone I know has on .... Oscar , Morris , My cousin Jillian , Even Cruthie ! Hell most of jacks cousins have babies !

I want one .... I'm sure Medda would be thrilled ! I want her to be a grandma and have a little one to play with while I help Jack run the country..... We both know she won't run it forever .

Oh and my father ! He wants a grandchild so badly . True Oscar and Morris have children but father never sees them ..

Mother .... I would not allow my baby near her .... I doubt Jack would too . We both know what she would do .... Even if the baby cries she's going to slap it or yell at it !

But why doesn't Jack want a baby ? Why doesn't he wants someone to call his own ...

Why doesn't Jack want me ? Why doesn't he want me to be his wife ? Or friend ! Or even his girlfriend !

He just uses me ! He using me for sexual encounters and I don't get squat .... Not this his kisses on my neck aren't nice .... But still ! Where do I fit in ?

I get nothing from Jack !

That's it I've made up my mind ! I want a baby and I want it to be jacks ! I'll just sleep with him again .... That's right ! I'm sure I'll get pregnant ....

I just want someone to love ..... I just want Jack to love me back .