Behind her Back

Why Did this All Happen?

Lucas's P.O.V
I groan as I lay in bed late at night, thinking. What the hell is wrong with Maya? She hurt her best friend? What the hell happened? I flick my lamp on and sit up in my bed. I can hear my parents arguing. Lately all they've been talking about is going back to Texas. I can't do that though, I have friends here. They've also discussed taking Zay and his family, but still, I have other friends besides Zay. I pick up my phone and almost text Maya. I should've never went on a date with Maya, I mean almost went on a date. I stare at one particular picture on my phone screen:

God. I miss the sweet her, the sometimes mean but never as mean as she was at the restaurant. The sexy Maya. Riley is nice but, almost too nice for me. My heart aches. All I want is Maya. But maybe Riley is better than Maya. Maybe I just have never realized it because I've been so fucking biased. Thinking that just because Maya is sexier that she's better. God I sure am stupid. I manage to muster enough courage to go to Riley's house. While I'm driving, I see images of Maya and I burning in my head.

I remember when Riley took this. We were just friends even though God knew we had something. Then I see one I took while we were kissing. I wanted to remember it forever. And I did.

I can't concentrate on the road as I think about this stuff. I used to think only girls felt this way about love. I know that was kind of sexist I guess? But now I know that even guys can get these feelings. I arrive at Riley's apartment and knock. I remember snapping Maya's neck. God, I feel terrible. She'll probably need a neck brace or whatever the hell they use. Cory opens the door. "Lucas? Didn't expect you here, late at night?"

I feel my hands getting all clammy and sweaty as I say "Can I see Riley? Is she okay?"

Cory says "She's in a lot of pain right now. Let me check if she wants to see you." He walks in the direction of Riley's bedroom. God I hope Riley does want to see me, I defended her.

Cory walks back and says "Come in Lucas." I give him a tight lipped smile as I slowly walk to Riley's bedroom. I stop at the door for a moment and hear something. Sobbing. Oh my god. I knock and hear in a sad voice "Come in." I step in and see Riley lying in her bed with the covers until her chin. Her beautiful face is tear stained and bruised.

"Riley, I don't even-"

Riley sobs and chokes out "I thought Maya was my best friend and we'd be friends forever."

I walk to her bed and gently pull the covers back. Riley looks so hurt, inside and out. "Riley, I love you." She wipes her tears away.

"What about Maya?"

"She's terrible." I force myself to say. I can't have Riley hear that I still like Maya. Especially now. I stroke Riley's hair and say "You're beautiful Riley, I don't know who wouldn't love you." Riley has a red neck from Maya. I touch it softly and lean in.

"Lucas-"

"What? You don't like this?"

She forces a smile, which still makes me feel better. "No, it's just my parents."

"Baby, they won't do anything if it's not, you know."

She slightly tugs me into her bed. I fall in with her and softly kiss her. She wraps her arms around me as we kiss, and I realize that she's definitely better than Maya. Maya's more rough while Riley is more soft and gentle, exactly what I need. We hear a knock on the door and pull away. Topanga and Cory are standing there. Topanga grins and Cory sternly says "Riley, you're still hurt, don't think about anything rough." I stifle a laugh because he's obviously talking about sex. They leave and I pull Riley towards me. My hand instantly goes under her shirt. Her parents just came, they won't be back for another, what, 20 minutes maybe?

She pulls back and says "Are we actually going to do this, here?" Her face looks concerned. I rub her bruised cheek and say "If you want to."

She softly says "I do, just gentle?"

I say "Of course, baby girl."

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