Hindi ko pa din sya tinitignan.. Nagaantay pa din sa reaction niya
Hindi na ako nagulat nang tumayo siya at mukhang aalis na. Alam kong hindi pag nag sisink in ang sinabi ko sakaniya. He probably will lose interest and ask for the annulment from me now. I felt a pang in my chest.
Nakita ko sa peripheral vision ko na nakatayo lang siya sa gilid ko, but that didn't make me look at him
Naramdaman ko nalang ang paglakad niya, mukhang aalis na kaya huminga ako ng malalim. That's it, J. You just have to accept the fact that he's probably not ready yet. Iniisip ko na ang ways para lumayo ulit kasama ang mga anak ko. I don't want them hurt. Okay lang, babies. You still got mommy with you
Nanlaki ang mata ko ng maramdaman kong may presensya na umupo sa gilid ko. Napatingin ako sa gilid ko at nakita ko siya. He's looking at me intently at nangingilid ang luha niya
He pulled me closer to him and hugged me from the side. He leaned backwards at ngayon ay nakahiga na ako sa dibdib niya. He was silent and I was too
Nagbago ba isip niya? Will he accept our kids? Will he welcome them with arms wide open?
Naramdaman ko ang paghalik niya sa sentido ko at ang pagbaon niya ng mukha niya sa leeg ko
"Thank you..." aniya, happiness is evident in his voice
I didn't know what to say "Thank you for finally telling me.." humihikbi niyang sambit. I don't know if it's the alcohol talking that's why he's bluffing or he actually knew all along... Sinabi sa akin ni EK that she paid for the investigator so keep this from him so he's probably bluffing, right?
Nanlaki parin ang mata ko sa sinabi niya, still not wanting to say anything "I thought you'd never tell me about them" dagdag niya
I was about to say something, pero every time I would open my mouth, walang lumalabas dito. Naramdaman ko na lang din ang pag hikbi ko. Shit. I didn't even realize that I was also shedding tears. He was caressing my arm. His rough hand felt soft on my skin.. The comfort it brings is just pure bliss
Maya maya, inangat niya ang mukha niya na nakabaon sa leeg ko kanina. Hinarap niya ako at hinaplos niya ang mukha ko, brushing off the tears I shed "Baby, it's okay.. I understand and I'm here. I'll always be here even if you don't want me to.."
"I will always be here. Just please don't push me away this time.."
Humihikbi pa din ako still not knowing the reason why, but he just hugged me tight. Suddenly, I felt home. This is my comfort. This is my most beautiful comfort
KUMAKAIN na kami ng lunch.. Still here sitting on the sun lounger that we sat on nung sinabi ko ang about sa dalawa
We still haven't talked magmula kanina. Well nagsalita siya when he ordered our foods, but I still haven't talked. Mukhang ako lang ang nangangapa though.. Dahil sobrang lapad ng ngiti niya
"Moe.." I started
Tumingin siya sa akin with his expressive happy eyes "Hmm?"
"How did... How did you.." I trailed my words. Shit, since when did the cat get your tongue Julie Anne?!
"How did I know?" he continued, still smiling widely
Tumango ako. How can he still look at me so intimately after everything that has happened to us?! Unreal. I can't even look at him without feeling bad because of what I've done
I wasn't expecting this type of reaction from him, but the other side of my mind keeps questioning me.. Pag nalaman mo ba ng mas maaga na ganito magiging reaction niya, will it change everything?
