I looked at my watch. I still have approximately three hours to go to the airport. My phone is dead batt kaya for sure, dun ko nalang kikitaan ang lima at ang dalawa para sa pagalis
"So?.." I trailed off. He seem to be off at I'm bothered with the his black eye
"About last time.."
Biglang bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko. I shouldn't be feeling this, but I feel pity. Not that I started liking Maison. I see him as a great friend and having to reject him now will be much worse for me because I will either lose him or he will choose to stay as my friend
Tumango ako bilang sagot at kinuha ang coffee na inorder niya. We decided to just go to Starbucks sa Makati dahil mas malapit ito
"Maison.. You see, I don't want to lose you, but if I have to, I will choose the latter. Right now, malabo pa ang pagsasama namin ni Elmo dahil we're starting from scratch again and I don't want something like this to interfere with us. You're my friend and I know that you're a great guy, but please..." pinangunahan ko na siya. I felt like my heart is about to beat out of my chest. This is so not me
The people in the business industry know me as the fierce, not backing down, type of woman
This is why I don't invest feelings as much because it is the same as taking a risk. You never know what will happen in the end..
"Julie.. I'm sorry"
Napatitig ako sakaniya at binigyan siya ng makatanungan na tingin. I don't know what he's trying to say
"I thought I was in love with you... I thought that because I saw Elizabeth in you.Back in those days when we were still in college. When I fell in love with her.."
I looked at my coffee. Useless pala yung intro ko! Parang napahiya naman ako ng konti
"I mean don't get me wrong. I did like you.. And I still do.. But realizations hit me that why would I mess with your family if you're already happy with them?"
He held my hand that was holding the cup. Hindi ko padin siya tinitingnan
"Then AA and I had a talk. Sabi ko, if she meets her mom ba, will she be happy. Ang sabi pa nga niya, diba nasa heaven na daw ang mommy niya? Meaning daw ba nun ay aalis na din kami sa earth at tutungo sa langit?" he laughed at napatawa na din ako
"Then I realized that I didn't really fall in love with you completely. I fell in love with the fact that you were there to listen. I didn't really open my door to anyone at ikaw lang ang kinausap ko. I opened myself to you and you were there to listen.."
He was quiet. Inaantay ko pa din ang idadagdag niya so I gave him time to think of what he's going to say baka kasi mapahiya nanaman ako
"And I saw how happy you were. Alam kong may problema kayo ni Elmo, but your love was still there. I thought I could change it dahil I was desperate to move on, but every time I would look at you and mention him or have someone mention him, you look mad, but your eyes scream that you care for him. It was enough for me to be inspired..."
"Then I saw Elizabeth. I wanted to get AA's custody that's why I used your company's money. I was desperate. But when I saw her crying one time during a hearing, I realized that I am hurting one of the most important woman in my life. It's something that was unbearable for me. So I talked to her. I talked to her after I confessed to you.."
He let go of my hand and made a sip of his frapp "I confessed to you because I wanted to see my true feelings. It wasn't the same as what I have expected. After nun, naguluhan ako.. Then Elmo came.. He made me wake up from my true feelings.. He had to beat me up para lang magising ako sa katotohanan. Evident naman sa mukha ko diba? Ang gago!" I glared at him kaya kumamot siya sa batok
