Warning: Konting SPG.. Well maybe maraming konti
So it's already eight at night. We've eaten dinner and I have already talked to the two
Sana daw ay sumunod na ako ng mabilisan para makita na nila ako. Although kanina, naramdaman ko na masasabi na sa akin ni Zeke ang sikreto dahil muntik niya na masahi ang daddy
I think Elmo and I are okay... I mean yes I followed him here to have the closure, pero mas more pa ang nangyari
Dalawang bagay lang naman ang iniisip ko na magiging outcome sana nang pagpunta ko dito. Either we'll make up and work it out or I'll go home with the two deciding where to go and hide
I mean yes, everything that's happening right know is ideal, pero thinking of other people like how to talk to Maison, Elizabeth and other people about this
Naramdaman ko ang pag hagod ni Elmo sa tiyan ko. I don't know what's up with EK choosing these clothing, pero nung makita ko ang label sa likuran, mga gawa pala ito ni Charlie
These are her summer collections, but for teenagers. Bare back, see through dresses, silk lingeries. I didn't know na ganito ang transition na ginawa ni Charlie. I thought she was just focusing on conservative type of clothing
I'm currently wearing a halter top at maxi skirt. Ito na ang last decent clothing bago ang mas provokative. I don't know how I'm going to wear those. I could wear those before pero yun yung after namin mag hiwalay ni Elmo..
I'm leaning on his chest and he's behind me "Baby..." sambit niya
Nandito kami sa suite at nasa likuran, looking at the stars. Maganda ang langit ngayon, sobrang matingkad ang mga bituin. Ibang iba sa syudad pag gusto mong mag star gazing
"Hmm?" he was playing with my stomach. He was carressing it up and down
He smelled my hair at hinalikan ang ulo ko. This intimacy is giving me so much heat. Sobrang lakas na din ng tibok ng puso ko. Shit this won't be good "What's in your mind? Are you still mad at me? If you want, we can book your room back"
Umiling ako. When he said those words kanina, I didn't know how to react. I felt a sudden pang in my chest, but the kind of pang that you like dahil ito ang tibok na alam mong masaya ka
Naging awkward lang din sa akin dahil last time na nagtabi kami sa isang kama, lasing siya noon and nothing happened. Wait Julie, are you expecting for something??
"No. I really just have nothing to say" and I feel this damn heat in my body. Of course I didn't say that though. Baka kung ano naman isipin niya
He's still carressing my stomach area "How was it?.."
Kumunot ang noo ko "How was what?"
"How was it when you had the two in your stomach? Did they give you a hard time? Did they give you morning sickness? What did you crave for? What did they make you crave for when you were pregnant?"
Then I realized, I deprived him from those details pala. We talked about us and the shallow depth of the kids but not the deeper level about the kids
I looked over my shoulder and he's still looking up, but his eyes were hopeful. Like everything that I'm about to say will be the only thing that will matter
I sighed and looked up. I leaned on his chest and I can feel his heart beating really fast. I held his hand that's carressing my stomach and entwined my hands with his
"Well.." I don't know where to start. Parang pagiisipin ko, madali lang sabihin, but my actions say otherwise
"It's okay if you don't want to tell me.." aniya sa malungkot na tono
