it's 12:41 am on a saturday night
(well technically sunday morning but whatever)
i'm crying
how could i be so stupid
why couldn't i just open my fucking mouth and ask
i'm so selfish
i bitch all the time about how nothing will ever happen
and i had a chance
and i was too scared to talk to him first
let alone ask about the candy grams
it was the first and only time that i've ever been scared of "scary"
i cannot believe people call him scary.
anyway
i'm just so upset over this whole thing
and mostly so unbelievably angry at myself
honestly
i give up
i don't deserve it
i've complained so much and done nothing
made him do everything
maybe that's why my friend saw him making out with a blonde in the hallway about a month after i got the candy grams
maybe that's why he got himself a girlfriend
i think that i overthink
a lot
but at this point:
i wish i'd never met him
because i'm such a mess
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little miss popular
Humorthis is nonfiction, this is all legitimate stuff that's happened in my life but i can tell that it's not going to have a happy ending sorry ☹ (and i'm putting this book in the humor category because i think my life is a joke and people think jokes...