little miss popular

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well

i found something out on friday

he was actually not the one who sent me the candy cane grams back in december

he said:

"i don't waste my money on shit like that."

which honestly, i was so shocked that it wasn't him

i mean, it doesn't really change anything else between us

he's still texting me

he still calls me cupcake

i honestly am so happy

but

who fucking sent me candy grams?!

i really don't know

my teacher was shocked

she thought he lied to me

but he didn't

but now she said that we have to find out who sent me the candy grams

i really don't care about whoever sent them

but i'd like to know who it was

and i'll stick with "scary"

because he makes me reallyreallyreallyreally happy

and i know that i'm going to be so upset when he leaves school

but for now, i'll just enjoy it while it lasts

and ignore the impending pain.

i've never felt this for anyone before.

i'm so attached to this boy

and he's not even a boy anymore

because he's a legal adult now.

i'm so screwed.