little miss popular

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i'm waiting outside in my dance clothes for my mom to pull out of our driveway so i can pull our trash can in before getting in the car to go to dance

and as i'm waiting for the car to move out of the way

i look down the street

and who do i see, walking on the opposite side of our town (opposite where i've seen him walk home)

i see him

walking towards my house

well not really towards my house

because he didn't know where i lived

but i guess now he does since we made eye contact

i had forgotten about him for 4ish days i think

and even though he dropped out of school

it still seems like i can't get away from him

and i've tried

so hard

and it's worked twice now but then i see him again and it's just hell

i had actually like, forgotten him

(well not forgotten entirely obviously but i haven't thought about him in a couple days because i think i was actually getting over him?)

but nOPE, he had to fucking show upon my street at the exact moment that i had actually left my house

great

honestly i just want this to be over

i kinda want to forget

because just the sight of this boy is enough to just throw everything off in my brain, in a bad way

like a friend said:

"that's so horribly cliché"

it is

but my life isn't a fucking movie or a book or something for others' entertainment

(even though i'm writing this down and publicizing it -_-)

and i don't want it to be cliché

unless i can have a cliché happy ending, with or without him

i'd like that very much