little miss popular

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why is he still here

he was supposed to drop out like last month

he keeps skipping a few days here and there

but he's still here

i mean, at this point, there's no point in dropping out since we have only a few days left and finals

and i'll be shocked if he even shows up to the finals

the point is

it's hell for me

he's so gorgeous and i just want to hear him speak to me again

say my name

or call me a nickname

or just text me

or touch me again

he just smiles at a joke

or ruffles his hair

or subconciously messes with his phone as he listens to others

and i just want it all

i want it back so bad

he was the one who cared about an age gap

but i'm the one who fucked up by ignoring him

i just miss him so much

i love him

how dare he be so gorgeous in my presence without conversing with me

i just want to talk to him again and text him and laugh until my face hurts and i can't breathe

i just want to hold his hand and hug him and i just want him to be mine

because even if he doesn't know it right now

i'm his

because i cannot get over him

i cannot move on

i can't even crush on anyone else because somehow, even after not talking to him for over 20 days,

i

am

in

love

with

him