little miss popular

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i'm currently writing this the same day it happened. right after class, i wrote down everything that happened

...is that weird? probably.

do i really care? no, because writing this out is kind of therapeutic.

so, it's the day after hawaiian day, and i walk in to hear:

"no more honolulu? aww what a shame."

all i diD WAS WEAR A TINY LEI THE DAY BEFORE

ignoring the fact that he might have a lei fettish,

(i'm totally kidding, but i don't know why he was upset that i was no longer dressing hawaiian)

...i sat down and started doing the warmup. we had to analyze a picture and write a story based on it. there was a lot of brightly colored nature and fluorescent green water.

i hear him start singing again

in that rough but calming and sensual voice

and he's trying to sing 'what a wonderful world'

but he can only remember the first line

and he just writes that down for his warmup.

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a little later, we start working on an assignment, and he starts talking about stuff

and at one point, he stops mid-sentence

and looks in my eyes

but i can't look back because i'm so afraid of being drawn in

and he says:

"you're actually smiling, like, smiling and laughing. wow."

i'd like to think that he's happy that he made me laugh, but i honestly have no idea what he thinks

and i wish i did, because this would make everything so much easier, by

a lot.