hi
i guess the story is basically over now
i mean, he left without either of us saying a word to each other
and i know there's no way he's going to make any efforts to talk to me
because i was just a blip in his life
when he was such a big part of mine that i'm still thinking about him even after an entire month of no conversing
i shouldn't care for him anymore but i still do because he made me feel true happiness and he opened my eyes to what it's like for me to have someone else to talk to romantically
he showed me that i become overly attached to people and i can't handle myself when they leave
he's showed me what it's like to take something for granted
and this is important for me because i now know why he was a part of my life
he wasn't the blessing
he was the lesson
(you know, the 'everyone in your life is either a blessing or a lesson' thing)
because i wondered this whole time why this had happened
so now i know
but that doesn't mean i miss him any less
because i still miss him so much; i crave to just even see his face again
but i won't text him, because i know he'll say something like "fuck off" and i honestly deserve it
and now, i can move on past these feelings and just stop looking for and wanting a relationship
because i'll become attached to and dependent of that other person, and i'll end up weighing them down
i've been doing this to people my entire life it seems
and it took him for me to finally realize
so this stops now
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(i told you that this wasn't going to have a happy ending)
YOU ARE READING
little miss popular
Humorthis is nonfiction, this is all legitimate stuff that's happened in my life but i can tell that it's not going to have a happy ending sorry ☹ (and i'm putting this book in the humor category because i think my life is a joke and people think jokes...