little miss popular

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i literally cannot stop smiling

the boy is driving me crazy, a good crazy.

i got his notebook again.

with a smile, he said:

"thanks sunshine"

fucK I LIKE THAT

i blushed, because what-the-fuck-else would i do around him?

he keept occasionally brushing me with his fingers

but it's only on the thigh now

once, i managed to keep myself together and not jerk a little or get chills

and he says "no reaction?"

"i'm um... trying hard not to react"

"well... whether you react or not, i'm not gonna stop."

"okay."

i finished the do-now and he says my name to get my attention.

"katherine"

i turned to face him, and i made myself try to maintain eye contact.

i did

he hesitated after a couple seconds before saying:

"you know... it's a known fact that if you maintain eye contact with another person for at least six seconds, you either want to have sex with them or murder them. i'm feeling like the first one."

i swear to god, as soon as i realized that he was referring to his desire to have sex with me, i have never blushed more in my entire life. i got a glimpse of his smirk before turning back to my notebook.

he put mine away for me when we were done with it.

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we played a game online made by our teacher, where we have to answer questions in teams, and you can pick your own name.

his first name choice, was

daddy

i swear to god i can'T EVEN

and then, his second name choice was

intimate touch

ohmygod

as soon as i saw it, i knew it was his name, and i knew he was referring to me

the entire class was giggling at his suggestive name

and only he and i knew that it was referencing us.

during this quiz, my name was kat

which seems normal to anyone who knows me from the internet

because i kinda prefer kat better

(although i don't mind 'katherine' with the way he says it.)

but no one irl actually calls me kat

and after the game, he did

and that was just as special to me as 'little miss popular' or 'sunshine'

and i was so happy

but we walked out of the classroom together, laughing, and i was smiling so much

i got to my locker, still smiling

i waited for my very slow friend (😉) so i could walk to lunch with her

and i was still smiling

i got to lunch and i was still smiling

halfway through lunch, i was still smiling

as i'm writing this in lunch, i'm still smiling

i'm so happy

and he makes me that way