little miss popular

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so

i was hysterically emotional

for two days

and i come back to school

and

1. he's not here today

2. we changed seats in english, so i don't sit next to him anymore

fuck

honestly at this point i regret ignoring him

i should have just stopped being a whiny little bitch, sucked it up, gotten over my feelings, and just been friends with him

but i didn't

and i was trying to make it hurt less in the future

but it hurts more

i have literally no way of being social with him

i mean, i could like, message him on steam

but that's not a great idea

although i really want to

i miss him so much, i just want him back in my life

some friends are telling me it's a bad idea to try to talk to him again

but anything that he says couldn't be more painful that what i'm feeling now

...right?