Grayson and I |Grayson Dolan|

28: a child at christmas

"i hope you have a great time back, your going to nail that meeting... don't take no for an answer," Lucy said as she dropped me off at the airport,

"fingers crossed," i said as i got out and dragged my tired body to the boot to grab my suitcase, i walked back over to the window to say the last goodbyes,

"try not to get to hung up over Grayson... remember that Harper is there to help and don't get too drunk," she said with a smile,

"i won't, and thanks again for driving me... mum had work," i said with a thankful smile,

"anytime... be safe and ill see you in two months... depending on how the meeting goes," she said with a laugh, "I'm joking.. it'll be fine," she said,

"i better go," i said, "see ya Lu!" i said as i started to walk off.

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the flight was as any other flight was, nothing major happened apart from a bit of turbulence and some slight shaking, nothing much happened. i was sitting next to a loved up couple which made me feel absolutely great about my break up that happened a month ago. just great. the two of them kept kissing and i felt bad for interrupting so i just shoved my headphones in and ignored the kissing noises.

when i got off of the plane, a young girl who was maybe 13 came up to me and asked me something,

"what are you doing here?" she said vaguely,

"um, i live here," i said slightly lying,

she furrowed her brows and spoke again, "you haven't come to annoy Grayson have you?" she asked me,

"no... id rather not talk about this with a little girl," i said and tried to leave,

"im not a little girl... I'm 14 actually," she said as she put her hands on her hips and walked off.

i shook my head and walked out of the doors to find Harper there leaned against my car,

"whoa... why did you bring my car?" i asked as i walked over and hugged her,

"well... i need you to drop me off at work, i have plans for tonight though... two single gals in the city... the night is ours!" she said as she threw her hands in the air,

"your not drunk are you?" i asked her unsure of whats going on,

"nope... I'm over that whole drinking till I'm almost passing out, i realised that drinking wasn't the awnser," she said as she walked around and hopped into the passenger seat,

"good on you... I'm not really in the mood to go out drinking though," i said as i slumped into the seat and started the car,

"pooper... but there is a party near the beach and i was invited by... Kyle?" she said as if i knew who it was,

"dont ask me... i wasn't there," i said as i pulled out of the pick up point,

"oh, your probably right, i have to be at work in 20 so put your foot down," she said as she curled her feet under her bum on the seat, i spotted something on her ankle as she was wearing ankle grazer jeans and some vans.

"whoa... did you get a tattoo," i said as i glanced down at her foot quickly,

"yeah i did it myself... you like?" she asked,

"yeah from what i can see it is pretty," i said trying to concentrate on the road,

"good because I've got a busy day today and yours is the first appointment," she said with a grin,

"what?" i asked her, "i don't want another tattoo," i said as i frowned,

"I'm paying..." i need the practise and i don't want too many tats," she said.

"fine," i gave in, "i guess i have to," i then said.

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"sit still... this may hurt a little," she said as the tattoo gun pierced my skin for the final bit of shading.

i was getting a tattoo of a lotus flower on my wrist.

when it was over, i covered it up with cellophane and left,

"ill see you later... I'm getting take out," i said as i left the parlour,

"bye!" Harper said in a chirpy tone,

i walked off and got into my car that was at least a 5 minute walk away from the parlour. i looked down at my phone after receiving a text, i stupidly put my actual text messages on and saw exactly what the person had said before i unlocked my phone.

Grayson: when did you get back to LA?

i didn't know when to reply as i hadn't spoken to him in over a month. i decided that there was no point in being immature so i replied like the adult i am,

Me: this morning

i sent the message with no regret and almost instantly there was a reply,

Grayson: she's alive

that message made me chuckle slightly and it felt good talking to him after the time apart.

Me: yes i am

Grayson: good, coffee?

i stared at my phone and pondered over my thoughts depending on wether i should go to coffee with him or not. would he be freaked out by how I've changed, my new tattoo; my hair that had been cut shorted; my paler skin from the lack of sun or the fact that i was a bit toned from going to the gym more.

who cares, it's only Grayson.

Me: sure :)

Grayson: 10 mins in starbs near your work :)

Me: see you soon

Grayson: x

it was happening all over again, i was ready to be friends but he definitely isn't going to let that happen without a fight.

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when i arrived at starbucks i saw that Grayson was sitting inside there already, i walked in and slowly walked over to him,

"hey," i said awkwardly,

"hi," he replied back awkwardly,

"I'm going to get a drink," i said as i walked over to the cashier and ordered a mocha frappe as i was still in England time and desperately in need of caffeine,

when i arrived back, he was on his phone typing, i sat down in the seat opposite and waited for the silence to be over,

"so," i said as he put his phone in his pocket and looked up at me, "how have you been?" he asked me,

"great... I've got a meeting with my work tomorrow about a job," i said as i sipped my drink and nodded,

"thats great," he said as he smiled,

i missed his smile,

"how was the tour?" i asked him as i recalled a big memory,

"it was amazing, i met so many great fans and it was so much fun..." he said,

the two of us made small talk for around an hour until i was almost passing out in my chair.

"i should get going," i said as i went to stand up,

"wait," Grayson grabbed my arm, "i love you," he said quietly,

i smiled and then looked at the floor,

"you wanted a break, i gave you one, you wanted to meet again, i came... i think this means something," i said with a smile, he smiled back and then released my arm,

"i love you too Grayson..." i said as i turned around and looked at him, his smile was from ear to ear and i felt like a child at christmas.

was i getting myself into trouble

or love?