A Mafia's Secret Wife

Chapter 60

IVAN

I remembered Boss pulling me and threw me away with full force before I passed out when I bumped my head hard. I also heard a loud noise before I lost consciousness.

After that, I regretted being stupid and clueless. I started to hate myself.

My eyes watered unconsciously as I stared at the white walls of the hospital. I sobbed silently as I wished he'll be here soon, visiting me with insults. That would be better, it would make me feel better, it would make things better.

I cried out loud when I saw my real brother entered the room and crashed my expectation. I mirthless laughed at myself. It hurts like hell that I realized everything was too late.

"You don't have to cry whenever someone entered the room," Brother Red nagged again.

I was tired of my own tears, but my heart certainly isn't. I was not interested in a conversation with my brother at that moment. I remained weeping in agony.

When I got discharged from the hospital was immediately sent to a psychiatrist for treatment. I was half-ass determined to improve myself.

I don't have a damn reason to move nor to continue, but Dad gave me a reason. He said if I truly regret being powerless, being stupid, and being weak then I had to wake to this reality.

Yes—it was quite true. If I improved myself, if I do better, then I could do things with enough knowledge and power to keep the people I love beside me.

Then, I will never, never, repeat that accident.

I snorted when I also decided to live far away, so far. A place where I couldn't easily run to a cold cemetery to spent all my tears.

"I know you needed me but you never said it," I mumbled as I talked to a thorny rose. "I love you but I never know," I whispered as I bit my lower lip hard.

"We want to stay together but ended up parting earlier, and in agony," I added.

"Hoy, iiyak ka na naman?" Nathan asked when he appeared beside me.

I glared at him. "Pinapaki-alam ko ba ang nakakahiyang pangliligaw mo sa pinsan ng asawa ko?" I quipped.

He grimaced and suddenly played coolly in front of me. "At least, diba?" he reasoned, shrugging his shoulders.

I frowned as I glanced at him. I went back my attention to the rose. "Sagarin mon a lang," I mumbled as I watered it.

"Oh, Nathan? Napabisita ka bigla ah," Kuya thundered behind us.

I looked at him over my shoulder. "Kuya, ang aga mo ata natapos mamali ng groceries?" I mentioned as I returned the tools I held back to the storage back in the balcony.

"Wala eh. Kailangan ko kamustahin ang pandak na 'to baka sa susunod mabalitaan ko na lang umiyak ng nang dugo 'to," he jested so I kicked the side of his ankle.

Kuya laughed softly as he rested his muscular arm on Nathan's shoulder. "Kaya nga nagmamadali ako lagi umiwi agad baka kasi ganoon na lang matunghayan ng hindi sa oras," Kuya teased, playing along with him.

Dad suddenly popped behind us, clapping his hand loud enough to get our attention. "It would be the best for us to eat than tease someone," he stated as he handed as some sliced watermelon.

Kuya and Nathan just laughed at me when I could only hold one slice. "Mga peste!" I shouted and tried to kick their asses but they kept on avoiding it.

"Humanda talaga kayo sa araw na mas magaling na ako!" I threatened them.

My eyes widened shortly when Dad tapped my head gently. "Good determination," he complimented.

I winked at him, giving him a thumbs up. My eyes flew at my brother and Nathan that kept on laughing hard.

"Kinakamusta ka pala ni Lawrence at ng tatlo," Nathan suddenly mentioned after he got over laughing at me.

He snapped his fingers when he seemed to recall something more. "The girls and the team missed you too," he added. "We're waiting for your full recovery so do your best, Nano," he cheered.

I forced a smile. "Thank you, paki-sabi na lang," I replied and started to eat as I walked away from them.

I wondered when will be the day of my full recovery. I wondered also if that time will come, will I be able to let go? Will I be able to move on or to accept it? Will I be able to bid a farewell to him?

"Farewell?" I murmured.

"Can I?"

THE END.