Thoughts Inside of My.... Mind?

Day Two,Part Two

Idk what's up right now but I'm gonna rant about it. So there's your heads up. This is gonna be be ranting/ complaining.

So I'm really not a relationship person. Like, I've got my friends and I'm generally happy with that. But as of recent, I just... I just really want someone to confide in? And talk to all day. And be able to flirt with. And to complain to. And to joke with. And to just be myself- in all ways.

Now I know, this isn't something people randomly bring up, or even say allowed, but I am. And I feel stupid for it. Like, I'm talking to a girl right now who's way cool, and I like her a lot- but idk. It's like, I feel like because I want someone to be in a relationship with so badly, I feel like I might be forcing it? But idk. I guess we'll figure it out.

Now that I've finished writing all this, it's hit me what I'm looking for. I'm just looking for someone to love. Like, to be able to openly express my love for them to them. And idk, that's lame.

Cuz I just want a friend like that- not a relationship. I guess.

I'm in high school, I don't want a relationship, I think. I want to live my life first before I settle down and get married and that stuff. But I don't know if I even want that.

God this really went all over the place, didn't it?

Wow okay, you guys did not want to know any of this, but I warned y'all that it was gonna be me ranting and complaining. So you kinda walked straight into it.

I'm out then, going to this concert soon. We'll see what happens

6/4/16 5:13 PM