Thoughts Inside of My.... Mind?

Halloween

Man. It's my favorite time of the year again.

But I feel kinda let down? Like, I was so excited and so spoopy, and like?? I'm not even going/didn't even go trick or treating. I'm actually kinda bummed out about that lol.

It's not like I went last year, or the year before. But I didn't really care then. And now I do.

This is a night that's supposed to be killer fun. You're supposed to dress up crazy and hang out with friends or go out partying. It's supposed to be sick (in a good way). And well, mine wasn't/isn't.

But oh well. I mean, it's not I'm suffering? I went out and had a good meal with my family and my grandparents so that was cool. But idk. This is one of those holidays that is supposed to be spent with friends, that's all.

And another note. I love my grandma. To death. But... I can hardly be around her anymore. She just takes every opportunity she has to use the wrong name and pronoun. At home I can deal with it, for the most part, but in public I can't. I just can't. I don't think she realizes how much she's ruining our relationship, especially considering that I'm the only grandkid who spends time with her.

But I can't change how she thinks, and that's understandable. But, it's wrecking me. And that's not okay.

So yeah. It was an okay night I guess. Didn't celebrate my favorite holiday.... went out with family members that keep trying to break me... but I got to spend time with my family, so the big picture's good I guess.

Okay. I'm out.

Happy Halloween, be safe please.

7:27 pm. 10/31/16