Thoughts Inside of My.... Mind?

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So!

Today at work, it was insanely hot, and like idk. I went into work feeling incredibly down and like, not happy at all. So I knew it was gonna be a bad day, after all, if I wasn't good then how would my day be good?

Anyways, we go to get our spots assigned and for the first time, ever, the supervisor called me by a band I don't use.

in front of everyone.

But mistakes happen right? Well, it's break time and the break guard had trouble finding me, because that name was on the sheet- not the name everyone knows me by.

So panic mode there. What if everyone starts calling me that? What if that isn't a one day thing? That's not who I am. And it's a problem.

Other than that tho my day was fine- wait, no it wasn't.

Let's just say I almost passed out at least 4 different times. Now, I normally don't ask for help or anything because I'm "always" "fine" (or so I tell myself) and I don't wanna waste other people's time when they can be helping someone else. But I had to call another guard over today so I could sit down for a few minutes and not pass out.

Other than that, I was really shaky and light headed all day, and kept having to grab onto the fence or stand so I didn't fall over.

Great. Not only will everyone start calling me by that name, now they're all gonna think I'm a wimp. Go me.

My gf rly helped tho tbh. Like she was rly worried about me all day and was a few spots behind me on the rotation, so she pretty much saw everything haha. After work she talked to me and i felt a lot better.  I even shared some things I haven't yet, because (go me) forgot to mention my depression before.

Okay I'm good now. This wasn't a rant or anything, just an update. I'm feeling pretty sick right now, and I'm already dreading working tomorrow.

We'll see how it goes.

11:42 PM.   7/6/16