... isn't easy. I mean yeah, it is for me, as a general rule. Most every day it's pretty easy for me, because it's who I am. But it takes a toll on me.
Being nice all the time causes me to snap at my friends every now or them, and to be really blunt and rude sometimes. But the worst part is when all of that unused and ignored anger and hate piles up... there's no way to get rid of it except to wait it out.
Right now, every fiber of my being is filled with hate and anger. And I just have to wait it out. But it's kinda scary, cuz it's like I'm a time bomb. And I don't wanna explode on my friends or the people I care about.
How do I deal? Like I said. I just wait it out... or I take it out on myself. It's been a while since I've done that... but it helps? It doesn't damage me if it helps me, right?
Who the fuck am I kidding. Ugh. I hate hating.
9:10 pm 11/11/16
Also;
Being this angry makes me want to rant and rave about things that people do that hurt and bother me and be a big baby about everything. But I'm not gonna. I'll just internalize all this rage instead.
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Thoughts Inside of My.... Mind?
HumorSo my friend Luis has this book with different chapters each representing something he's thinking about. He uses it as a venting tool and other things, and I've decided I'm gonna try it too. SO. These are just random thoughts inside of my.... mind.
