Thoughts Inside of My.... Mind?

Home

So I'm home now... and I've been crying for a while over a variety of things.

A) I miss my fellow delegates from the seminar. I love them so much and they all were so accepting, understanding, and knowledgeable. Even if I only talked to them once or not even at all, they all changed my life.

B) this world is really fucked up. And I can't do anything here on my own. I don't know how to help. But everything's going to shit around me.

C) I miss the conference. I miss learning and talking about things that interest me with other people who are interested. I miss feeling the hope that came along with every second, and the power that came with knowing we could do anything to change the world. I wish it could've lasted way longer.

D) I'm never gonna see anyone from it again. I'm never going to feel that kind of hope and power again... I actually feel kind of hopeless now.

E) I'm lonely. I miss being empowered by everyone around me. I miss having someone to talk to and joke with every second of the day. I miss eating lunch or dinner with my friends, I miss attending lecture together. I miss everything. And now I'm all alone here. I'm alone in the fact that no one understands what I've been through or the amount of change that happened this week. I'm alone mentally. And physically. I'm literally eating dinner by myself...

I... I feel so lonely and hopeless.

6/30/17 8:25 pm