BROKEN

CH. 4-the gun

*ACE'S POV*

"ACE!"

I froze.

"Stop!" Kara cried pushing me over and straddling over me and pinning my hands above my head where the gun was out of my reach.

I quickly retaliated throwing her under me and cowering over her hearing her melodic pulse in harmony with mine, but I ignored it. I was always like this.

Warm one minute and then cold the next.

"I want to die, Kara. I'm sick of living in a world where people judge those who they don't know. I'm sick of listening to those heartbeats, those pulses. They are so calm and for all I know I'll never have one, but worst of all, I'm sick of people looking at me and pitying me, yet leaving me on my own where I'm forced to fight myself."

"Ace," she whispered dropping the gun into the floor.

I instantly stopped and collapsed onto her chest.

"I'm sorry. I wanted to talk to you before I took my own life. I wanted to spend whatever time I was giving myself left to live with the girl who I wanted to protect, but left in the dust for reasons I'm still not sure of." I whispered.

"Ace, please don't take your own life. You've left me before and here you were with a gun to your head ready to leave me again for your own selfish reasons. You didn't even think about me when you were ready to kill yourself did you, or you wouldn't have done it."

"You're wrong, Kara. I thought of you the most when thinking about it. I'm just a dark, lost soul and you're beautiful and full of life. You'd be better off without someone like me weighing you down."

"Don't talk about yourself like you're a burden!" She said flipping herself to where I was under her again.

"All I've done for years is worry about you. Wondering if one day you would go off and end it all or do something irrational and get yourself killed. Wondering if you were dying inside...I was just hoping that all of my wonderings weren't true and when I heard you load that gun, I didn't know what to do." She whispered putting my head beside mine and resting on top of me.

"Kara."

"Don't talk. Don't think that I'd be better off without you. For years all I've done is pray and hope to God that you were okay. All of that hoping and praying and crying would be for nothing if you were to throw it all away. Get it into your head, Ace! I'm not leaving you and I've been here since the beginning! Stop feeling like no one is here for you when I've been here and I'm always going to be here no matter what you do or where you go. You could be a monster and I still wouldn't leave you!"

At that rate I had picked her up and tried to put her outside of my room, but she wouldn't let go of me. She wrapped her arms around my neck and put her legs around my torso as I tried to shake her off.

"Kara, go back to your room." I said, but I wasn't angry.

"No, I'm not going to go until you clarify something with me." She said determined to get some answers from me.

"You told me not to talk." I said as I shut the door and sat her down on the bed.

"But I didn't say not to explain yourself."

"Still a form of talking."

I lay down on the bed and grabbed her waist before wrapping my arms around her and pulling her next to me.

"Kara, you told me you would be by my side even if I was a monster. Did you mean that?" I said tightening my grip on her as if I didn't want anything to get near her.