BROKEN

CH. 7-the restlessness

*ACE'S POV*

I was finally sleeping pretty soundly as I lay in the hotel sheets until I heard rustling.

I looked over and Kara was thrashing around in her bed. She was sweating and although her eyes were closed, the look on her face brought fear to my mind

Just what are you dreaming about?

"Ace what're you-" is what she said.

She was dreaming, no, she was having nightmares about me.

"HELP ME! HELP ME!" she kept screaming those terrifying words and I couldn't move. What was I doing to her in her mind?

I finally mustered up the courage to jump across the room and jump into her bed covering her mouth with my hand as she continued to scream.

Eventually I got settled and she stopped screaming in fact, she even woke up.

She turned to face me putting her hands on my bare chest before I took my hand off her mouth and smiled at her. I smiled because she no longer had that look of fear frozen onto her face.

I turned her back around and pulled her close to me and she didn't resist. Instead she snuggled closer to me and all I could think about was how warm she was.

I assumed she wanted an explanation as to what I was doing so I leaned over and told her.

"You were having a nightmare and you were yelling. I didn't want to get kicked out so this was all I could do. I'll have to stay here with you to make sure that doesn't happen again."

She nodded and I guess eventually went to sleep but all I could do was listen to her heart beat and stare at her neck.

I'm not sure why I did all this staring. I would never forget the promise I made to myself after that pureblood killed my family and left their corpses to rot on the floor.

"I know what I am now. I'm one of them, but I'm never going to kill or hurt. I will never cause pain to those around me because of what I am or what I think like that monster did. I'm never going to be like him. I'll never be a monster."

As I sit here now desiring to pierce her neck with my fangs and devour blood until I can devour no more, I realize I've become a monster without even hurting her. Only a beast would look at something such as this with such desire.

I'm a monster.

The one thing I never wanted to be.

I felt my fangs grow into the bottom of my mouth and pierce blood so I drank what was spilled of my own. My eyes burned a bit, but I was getting more use to the feel of the fluorescent red against my normally grey eyes.

I got up after letting go of Kara and went to the bathroom. I splashed my face with water and tried to calm down, but I couldn't. This thirst got worse day after day.

I went back to bed even though my throat hurt. My head was throbbing and I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep. I needed some sort of sustainment for the time being and eventually I'll kill myself or thirst to death, but I wouldn't care if as long as my thirst was quenched and I left Kara completely untouched.

I laid back down in my own bed just in case I would do something that I would regret for the rest of my existence.

She's going to find out eventually.